Chasing The Half Of Heart

I'm chasing stars tonight outside the balcony of my apartment. We often used to do it together.. before, but now I'm doing it all alone. We used to swear promises said let the stars and moon be the witnessed our loved. So I wonder why I'm doing it all alone.

Today, I wrote 5 pages of things why should I hate you, but I end up tearing it, said what the used of writing it all, things will never change, he will never comeback anymore

Today, our favorite country song played on the radio while I'm driving and Im stupid to cry for the things that cause me pain. Guess it took me an hour to start driving again

Today, I went to the park just to seat on the old bench under the acacia tree for 3 hears. As I look around everything is normal, everything is right and I wish I could be fine too, soon.

Today, I think about those happy memories I had with you. Those times that even we don't speak, our heart does. Those kisses that I miss and the feeling to be with your arm.

Today, when I got home I saw the stain of the paint on my carpet and as I look around the whole apartment I bust on cry again, yelling your name like you could hear me and even if I wanted to stop doing this all over again, I can't. You are all I see in every corner of my apartment.
Because you will always be in my heart.

Its fckng suck that everything we worked for, we fight for are now the reasons of every pain when every time I remember you.

And Im so pathetic to believe that after all the pain, the tears I had when you left, im still wishing and hoping for you to come back.
I said you're my lifeline. But you left and I think im dying

And tonight im chasing all the star, may be wishing for you to comeback but if its impossible, may be wishing for myself for a full recovery, not forgetting every memory of you but holding those memories to move forward.

Because you're my dream, you're my lifeline but now you're gone so maybe I could use all those memories to keep on fighting, to keep on surviving.