Bring me back to life
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Ongoing5m
Last published Mon, Aug 8, 2022
⚠️TW⚠️ suicide, self harm, bulimia, alcohol abuse/abuse, siezures, eating disorders
*Side note* The siezures in this book are not caused by epilepsy so please be understanding of that before you tell me the triggers are wrong. They are caused by something called functional neurological disorder (fnd). I have to live with this too. I feel like it's not well known when it should be so this book will show you what me and many others have to cope with and the dangers that can cause us. I will not be watering any parts of it down. This will be the brutal truth of what I live with. Saskia is a reprisentation of me. Not all of her life traumas are true at face value but all will represent something I had to cope with in my life time.
Perfect families exist in fairy tales. Real life is ugly and cruel. Rarley though you will find not a place but a person you can call home. A person you know you can rely on to be there for you when it matters most. A person you can run to and hide in their arms when the world is treating you unfairly.
Saskia hasn't had much of a childhood. From the age of 7 she hasn't found a day of peace. A day she could truly say she was happy. Her happiness dissapeared along with the girl she used to be. Just as she was ready to end everything Ace showed up. Arrogant, stubborn, bossy Ace. He swept her up in a whirl wind of emotions and showed her hope. A hope that might just be able to save her.
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