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Falling, Flying, Repeat

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This "book" started as really just a collection of some personal thoughts I have written up about a boy...or two, then even more...Until all of a sudden, I went from unraveling how I felt about guys, to uncovering how I feel about myself. What started as embarrassing and naive diary entries about boys, began increasing immensely in depth overtime. Feel free to join me through my journey of feelings, experiencing, traveling, overthinking, and so much more if you'd like. 
	I have been fortunate that my life has been full of so much joy, memories, love, etc. Even if this tends to focus on my darker thoughts/fears, the circumstances surrounding the pain tend to outshine it. However, you can't blame me for over-explaining the pain of life on paper, I am a Scorpio after all, and when we feel, we feel hard.
	So, you have been warned. Anything I publish here will be pure, raw, honest emotion about whoever/whatever I may currently find myself feeling drawn to and/or going through. The person and/or experiences in question that I may be writing about it is subject to change, just as ones heart does. Furthermore, not like it matters, but for my own comfort or reassurance, all names mentioned are fake, most likely randomly chosen in the moment as I write. I hope someone somewhere might be able to relate to what I'm saying upon my reflections, and if you do, I'm sorry you too feel so intensely with no solution in sight. We'll both be happy someday. 

Love,
Alexandra <3All Rights Reserved

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𝙸 𝙼𝚒𝚐𝚑𝚝 𝙰𝚜 𝚆𝚎𝚕𝚕

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