My Lost Boy

Love. Its a crazy thing. I wish I knew where he was. I wish i knew where my darling Peter Pan was. I look and I look, but I know he's not here anymore. My heart aches when I call out for him, and there is no answer. I cry every morning when i wake up in my bed, and he is not beside me. I sob when my lost boys ask where their leader is, and i cant tell them because I don't even know! My heart is in a million pieces, and the only people that i can care about right now are my lost boys, Felix, and my best friend Emmett. Emmett was my friend before i ever came to Neverland. He was the one who actually told me to go, to follow my dreams. "Julianne I don't need you staring at a damn wall everyday just waiting to go to the place of your dreams, if this is what you want, what is holding you back?" he would say. The truth was, nothing was holding me back, except my fear. I knew it was possible to leave England and go to Neverland, and i knew that the only words i had to say was " I believe". It doesn't seem hard, but in my mind I couldn't leave my family or Emmett. But somehow i did it. I let the shadow take me to the place of my dreams... Neverland. The shadow dropped me off in some trees, and i pretty much fell the whole way down, thanks for that one. Felix had never met me, but when i saw the rope that he was about to tie my hands in, I said "Put one finger on me and I'll punch you in between your eyes so fast you wont have enough time to say shit." I said defensively. "I like you" Felix said and smirked. Felix took me to the camp, and it was so beautiful, but i needed some time to myself to actually realize that i was here! I was actually here! I walked into the woods, and just sat down by a tree, but heard some rustling in the trees, but i didn't think it was anything, just some lizards or maybe a cute bunny, but it wasn't a lizard or a bunny it was a boy about the age of 18, and i won't deny he was handsome, but he did scare the shit out of me.