[BL] I shouldn't have married the crown prince

Eschyle: I don't want to die but one day I woke up in the body of a 5 year old boy. I transmigrated into a book, a romance between the hidden child of the emperor and the female lead. I woke up in the body of the villain who abused the male lead throughout his childhood not knowing that he was the prince. I wanted to survive and hide as far away from him as possible but for some reason he can't seem to leave me alone. Why isn't he sticking to the female lead and follows me everywhere?

Cadmael: No one ever helped me. But one day the look in his eyes changed. Under the sun, this young boy looked like an angel and I never wanted him to leave. I wanted to hold his bag when we went home. I wanted to hold his hand when he was reading. I wanted to lay my head on his tights when he was thinking. I didn't want him to smile at anyone else and didn't want him to let anyone touch him. I wanted to touch him all over and to kiss every inch of his body. I never wanted him to leave and felt very anxious because it seemed as if he could disappear any time soon. I had to be patient but all I wanted was him. I was going to kill every person that would get between us.