Being Ellie
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Last published Sun, Nov 25, 2012
I'm Ellie. I'm broken beyond repair. I can't be fixed. My body is littered with scars--physical and mental. I'm not even living anymore. I'm just going through the motions. No one could save me. No once could love me. No one.
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