Forever Alone

How many times have you stopped yourself from messaging me?.. As you can see, I've reached my limit of forcing myself to erase your name from the "To:" area. It's hard you know. To love someone so much it hurts. It hurts more to know that person is better off without you. It hurts even more than that to know you'll never find someone who makes you feel the way she did. Memories may fade, but all it takes is one sight, one touch, one smell, to have all those thoughts rushing back into your head. They say time heals everything. I feel time just gives you more opportunity to slowly rip yourself apart. Overthinking. Wishing. Dreaming. Wishing you could go back and do it all over again. Dreaming of a different ending. Restless nights have become too frequent and happy days are far and in between. The thought of forever alone creeps in, you start to give up hope on love, on meaning, on happiness.