Shut Up!

Ever since i was 9, my best friend and me had a friend group. We were around ages to 9-14. I disliked the guys, they're younger and unbelieveably stupid. As children we had access to the internet way too early and learned about shit a little too fast. Our friend group was shattering and the only thing we did was play and argue, continuous swear and always believed in stupid shit (not me.) Of course it all ended when i was 12, a wild arguement as 7 of us were screaming and furious. "Whoa Whoa! What's happening?" A cut up arguement of my best friend and other members arguing with the guys. They were fighting constantly beating up shit and were upset. "Shut up!" I said, to everybody. It was silent, the silence was.. loud. "Shut up for gods sake! You all goddamn know that we guys are fucking already flattered and destroyed! I knew from the start this friend group wouldn't go well. We might've been trough scary shit and all of that and had fun but i think it's time for all of us to calm the fuck down and say what we actually though about eachother." Since it was a early made friend group, of course someone had a crush on someone else. It was wild, i didn't attack anyone but i was defending myself. I got tired of their shit and stuff that i just threw everybody down to the ground, "I said, shut up." As i exhale relief of no loud voices barsting trough my ears i finally said the things that were holding inside deeply trying to escape it's cage in my soul. "I never wanted to say this, but i hated the way we all are. This friend group needs to be shattered and left alone in peace, it's time for all of us to go." Everyone quickly stood up and started speaking, soo many voices i felt.. I felt.. Heltimated, locked in a dark room of nothing but just complainments.. Ringing in my ears, i snapped back to reality. "Stop! Stop! STOP." Silence stood up their soul. "Stop speaking, please!"... "I don't care if you guys still wanna be here, im done and i'm leaving!"