Loss and Love

We are never taught the proper way to feel at a funeral. I mean you have your criers, the ones who are sad but won't show it, and then the randos that just show up to pay their respects. I on the other hand feel nothing. I am sitting front row starring at my brothers corpse laying in the stupid casket and I feel, nothing. I am not sad, I am not angry, I am just empty. I finally break my eyes away from him to look around the room, Leigh walked in, her eyes red and puffy. She looked like shit, I mean at least clean up a little, I did. Her mother spotted me first, I received a small smile from her, the gesture saying so much. I always loved Leighs mother, she was sweet and sometimes a nut, but she was an amazing person, and mother. Leighs sister was no where to be seen, which didn't bother me as much. She walked over to the casket as her mother made her way to her seat.

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AU of "Sorry For Your Loss", just because I wanted it to be gay. <3