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Love, Grace.✔️

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I figured that since I was going to die, I should write a letter to my parents. But in the event that I survive, I didn't want to be branded as a curse.

But I can't live. I just can't.

I bet you're wondering why I would want to commit suicide.

Why would this seventeen year old, smart, pretty girl want to commit suicide? 

*****
The reason is simple- I made some bad decisions. Decisions that later bit me in the butt.The first thing I remember of being a child, and my first ever memory is a bitter one.

*****


And without a second thought, I take a swig of the opened beer by my side and throw some pills into my mouth. I swallow.

I stare at the clock and wait. Nothing changes. No wobbly feelings, no stomach ache, no nothing.

******
My name is Chikasinma Grace Wilson and this is my story.

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This is a Nigerian girl's journal on her life and all the bad decisions that worsened her depression.All Rights Reserved

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Secret Mind ✓ by sadlyish

"She's right! She's right! I don't cut in the right spot." My hold tightens on my wrist. The red blood oozes out of my wrist. I slide up and grab my bag and run out of the bathroom. I don't care if people can see the blood I just want to get out. I race for the doors and shove through people. I earn a lot of glares and glances that read "weirdo." I ignore and push. I run to my house and lock myself in my bathroom. I don't bother closing the front door cause I don't care if people come in to kill me. I grab my razor and cut deep cuts into my arm and wrists falling into a pool of my own blood. • • • Evangeline has a great life. Friends? Check! Good grades? Check! Loving family? Check! But what if she has secrets that nobody knows of? What if the only thing she can trust is her secret diary? What if slowly but surly she's dying inside? How can an innocent twelve year old deal with these problems? Will she keep on facing these problem till the day she breaks. Her school burns down forcing her into a different school to meet different people and she has to fit into a different lifestyle as well. Meet Evangeline. Now at 17 years of age in a new high school. Not all girls anymore. No uniform. Meet Drake. Your classic bad-boy. He just moved to Saint Abigail high school. He is assigned partners with the quiet, calm, unnoticed Evangeline. As time progresses he finds that she isn't as happy on the inside as she is on the outside. Can he save her? Or is it too late? • • • Some rude language. Depression and cutting. Don't say I didn't warn you. Okay, I wrote this at the start of this year (may 2016) and I had very poor writing skills. This book hasn't been edited and the whole idea is cliche so I wouldn't recommend you read it but I'm not stopping you, either. Read at your own risk. • • • Copyright © 2017 by -moonlust. All rights reserved.

Heavenly Sin (EDITING) by IMAWRITESSS

"I could kill you," he grins holding the gun to my temple. "I wouldn't be scared," I reminded him. He trails the gun under my chin lifting it, allowing me to look him in the eyes. "No one would know you were murdered by me," he continues making me smile. "I think I might have a gun kink;" I tell him while holding eye contact. "Fuck," he mutters as he smashes his lip onto mine, •••• The crimson colour pools beneath me as I let him twist the dagger that had been living in my heart since the day we had met. Sometimes we settle for the love we think we deserve only because are parents didn't portray it better therefore we think the bare minimum is over the top. ••••

Unrequited Love by me_loves_you227

This is a story about a girl and a guy(of course). But before we start, let me ask you a question. "Handa kana bang mag mahal ng taong di mo gusto?" Yeah, it might sound ridiculous. But, think wisely, carefully, if ever God has given you a chance to live someone who's not your type, but is willing to do everything for you, will you take that chance? Or watse it? (Prologue) Unknown's POV: "You lied?...you both lied to me!" She scream as tears went streaming down her cheeks. Just seeing it made my heart ache, my chest tightening as my vision slowly blurring. Di ko alam na naka iyak na pala ako. But, I did not pay attention to that. I was too busy looking at the girl who's I really love crying and shouting at me. "I-...I'm sorry, I did...i...was going to tell you." I stutter, my voice trembling. She shook her head. Just seeing her shaking her head made me realize. Is it..over? Will she really leave me now? But-no..I can't. I can't live without her. What will I do now? What will I do? ____________________ It's our graduation day, and here I am, already ready, with a bouquet of flowers in my hand and a letter. I will finally confess to her. It would be a happy day, but the thing is, I'm not alone. My 'friend' is with me, he is also going to confess to her. But what really happened? Why did we went through all of this because of a single girl? Why did we like the same person? Who would she chose? Sino ba talaga ang pipiliin ng babae? Ang boy best friend o ang lalaking playboy na di nya gusto? There is only one way to find out.

Too Good to Be Real by royalty__writes

She felt his warm palm on her wrist and at once she was facing him. Without warning, his lips engulfed hers, setting her on fire just like she did him. His lips were warm and soft and she revelled in it as she shut her eyes, her body instantly warming up to the kiss. She wrapped her arms around him, marvelling at how their bodies fit perfectly together. It felt so good, like her head was rotating. Nothing else mattered. Just the two of them. This was all she needed. Someone who accepted her for her. Her flaws, her beauty, herself, hook line and sinker. She withdrew reluctantly, angry she had to stop the kiss and also afraid someone had seen them. As she stared into his eager eyes, she knew she loved him but she couldn't help thinking she was doing the wrong thing. She loved him, but it wasn't fair to his girl. She could do anything, run, apologise, but she followed her heart. She drew him back and continued the kiss. A Nigerian themed story bound to leave you yearning for the next chapter.

WHEN NO ONE IS LOOKING(A NIGERIAN LESBIAN STORY) by Stephenie04

🌼Amaka's Arc " I've spent my whole life being who they told me to be-- daughter, good girl, christian, student. But the first time she looked at me like I was real, I wanted to know who I could be". ✨Adaeze's Arc " She's too young, Too bold, Too risky. But I see myself in her-- the fire I buried under silk and success. Maybe I'm not done loving at all". ADAEZE OKWARA____ 36 * Business mogul ( Tech start __upturned empire). *Has lived abroad (UK) but returned to Nigeria to "make something real" *Strong, poised, cold to most but deep down she's still nursing scars. AMAKA EZE_____ 21 *Final year student at UNILAG ( mass comm) * Curious, witty, book smart but emotionally confused. *Just starting to realize her queerness but afraid of being ostracized or "labeled". This is my first book and it's based off a Nigerian setting please no hate comment correct with love

CHELSEA by Livviejay

He stood at the entrance of his bathroom, his chest bare, his sun kissed hair wet from his late afternoon shower.. He caught my stare and held it with his own making long stride towards me, I swallowed hard. "There's no running away now little girl." He said trapping me with his arms, my back against the wall. "Who is talking about running?" I answered, faking a fierce look... A seventeen year old girl whose life changed as a result of a divorce, and a remarraige. Now it's left for her to decide if the change is for good or bad as she tries to adapt to the life her step father bestowed on her. Now can she do it? Because everything is new now, including her country .. A Nigerian in the midst of Americans is it devastating? Or intriguing?

My heart bleeds on paper by Buccay

..."Are you free tonight?" he asks and I look at him crazily like 'sho wa okay?' but he repeats the question "Are you free tonight?" "work" I sigh out "tomorrow night?" he asks again "work" I speak He just smiles and tells me "Wonderful, so it's a date then. I'll pick you up tomorrow night by 8 pm and please bring your camera"... Trying to breathe when life itself seems to be drowning me is so difficult, why struggle to come up for air when I finally can be at peace for once?

A journey Through Regret (On Going) by abubakarzaimat

All she ever wanted was to be seen. Not the best school. Not the richest house. Just love. But what happens when those meant to protect you are the first to abandon you? She thought being Head Girl at South Park International was the dream- Secret parties. Praise. A man's love. Until one night One drink Changed everything and the only thing that ever mattered... Was taken. Not in love. Not in marriage. But unknowingly. A pregnancy no one wanted. A slap that echoed louder than her cries. A marriage she never chose. ______________________________ "You called me a disgrace... but what do you call parents who abandon their child emotionally?! What do you call a mother who only shows up to criticise? A father who's more present in the community than in his own home?!" My mum scoffed. > "So you found love in the arms of some lowlife boy? How smart, Noor. You're just like those dirty girls on the street!" Her words stung. I glared at her. > "Don't you dare call me dirty," I said. "I became who I am because you weren't who you should've been. You helped write this story." "You'll abort that bastard "That 'bastard' is my baby. And she's the only one who hasn't hurt me." I turned to my dad. "You want me to fix it by pretending it never happened? Kill a child for your dignity?" "Watch your tone!" he yelled. "No! YOU watch yours! Where were you when I was crying myself to sleep? When I begged for your attention with my silence?! I reached for the knife on the table. My mother's eyes widened. "Noor, don't!" she shouted. I held the knife to my chest. "Kill me, then. Do it. Because I'm tired of living in this prison you call home. At least if I die, I'll finally get your full attention." --------- *A Journey Through Regret is a powerful tale of neglect, rebellion, and redemption. But will regret be the end... or the beginning of her healing? . Follow my pen-this story will stay with you. Drama, twists, and a ride you won't forget. Buckle up!

$The Grey In Black And White {COMPLETED} by Dami_A_Johnson$

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Flaws Of An African Girl (COMPLETED/UNEDITED) by yvonnenezi8

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Secret Mind ✓

"She's right! She's right! I don't cut in the right spot." My hold tightens on my wrist. The red blood oozes out of my wrist. I slide up and grab my bag and run out of the bathroom. I don't care if people can see the blood I just want to get out. I race for the doors and shove through people. I earn a lot of glares and glances that read "weirdo." I ignore and push. I run to my house and lock myself in my bathroom. I don't bother closing the front door cause I don't care if people come in to kill me. I grab my razor and cut deep cuts into my arm and wrists falling into a pool of my own blood. • • • Evangeline has a great life. Friends? Check! Good grades? Check! Loving family? Check! But what if she has secrets that nobody knows of? What if the only thing she can trust is her secret diary? What if slowly but surly she's dying inside? How can an innocent twelve year old deal with these problems? Will she keep on facing these problem till the day she breaks. Her school burns down forcing her into a different school to meet different people and she has to fit into a different lifestyle as well. Meet Evangeline. Now at 17 years of age in a new high school. Not all girls anymore. No uniform. Meet Drake. Your classic bad-boy. He just moved to Saint Abigail high school. He is assigned partners with the quiet, calm, unnoticed Evangeline. As time progresses he finds that she isn't as happy on the inside as she is on the outside. Can he save her? Or is it too late? • • • Some rude language. Depression and cutting. Don't say I didn't warn you. Okay, I wrote this at the start of this year (may 2016) and I had very poor writing skills. This book hasn't been edited and the whole idea is cliche so I wouldn't recommend you read it but I'm not stopping you, either. Read at your own risk. • • • Copyright © 2017 by -moonlust. All rights reserved.