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Everything I Wanted (But Didn't Know I Needed)

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we all need that someone, who gets you like no one
knows right when you need them the most
we all need a soul to rely on, a shoulder to cry on
a friend through the highs and the lows

~~~~~

After being rescued from the red room in Russia by the SSR, Dottie Underwood was fostered by Ana and Edwin Jarvis in Manhattan. Starting a completely new life in a new country where everyone was speaking a language she could barely understand was terrifying to Dottie.

But it wasn't nearly as terrifying to her as the red room. Everything she endured, everything she was forced to do.... it haunted her. Battling PTSD, learning a complicated language, un-learning everything she ever knew, it was all just so hard.

Ana, who was the principal of her new school, tried everything to help her. English tutors, therapy, social outings, anything she could to help prepare her for school. Over the summer, she did very well. But it all changed when she started at Stark-Frost Academy. Physically speaking, the bullies were nothing compared to the red room. Mentally speaking? As much as she tried to hide it, the words cut deeper than the knives she used to throw.

And then she met Peggy Carter. Perfect grades, perfect family, perfect smile, perfect nose, perfect friends, perfect life. God, Dottie hated her. Peggy was everything that she knew she could never be. And that infuriated her.

So what will happen when Principal Jarvis enlists Peggy to help Dottie adjust to her new life? Will Dottie's jealousy towards Peggy drive a wedge in her path of redemption? Or will it only ignite the rising flame between them?

~~~~~

Modern Day Carterwood High School AU

Highest rank:
#8 in #carterwood

⚠️ TRIGGER WARNINGS ⚠️
Bullying, slurs (censored), PTSD episode, physical violence, small scene with animal dissection in a classroomAll Rights Reserved

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Finally Free by lulustoriesss

"I need you to be the put together one because I'm so fucked up. You've saved me." He whispers. "Carter, we saved each other." I mutter looking at him through my eyelashes. I lean into him, our lips not even an inch apart. "Sophia we shouldn't..." He looks hesitant. "Please, I need you." I almost started crying. "Please." I mutter one more time, my eyes begging for him. My body needing him. Sophia Carrington. She just moved from New York to California in search of a new life. When her life took a dark turn she's forced to leave everything behind. She just wants to finish her final year of high school, numb to the world, while learning to cope with the trauma she's endured. Carter Marquez. Newly single after being dumped by his girlfriend of two years. After losing his dad in a car accident he's fallen apart. The list of people he trusts is short, he hates letting people in. He's constantly trying to make up for his mistakes of the past, trying to find a new purpose in life. When the two of them collided, they instantly took a mutual disliking to each other. Misunderstandings and a dash of alcohol set a flame between them. Sophia hates the snarky remarks and stupid nicknames that leave his mouth. Carter thinks Sophia is just another trust fund brat. Soon their rivalry begins to dissolve and they learn that sharing the pain of their past can form connections they never thought to be possible. WARNING: This story contains mature topics such as sexual assault and drug addiction. Read with caution. Copyright © by lulustoriesss 2021

Bad Idea! by alcinaswhxre

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Untold Truth by hannahcmary

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Finally Free

"I need you to be the put together one because I'm so fucked up. You've saved me." He whispers. "Carter, we saved each other." I mutter looking at him through my eyelashes. I lean into him, our lips not even an inch apart. "Sophia we shouldn't..." He looks hesitant. "Please, I need you." I almost started crying. "Please." I mutter one more time, my eyes begging for him. My body needing him. Sophia Carrington. She just moved from New York to California in search of a new life. When her life took a dark turn she's forced to leave everything behind. She just wants to finish her final year of high school, numb to the world, while learning to cope with the trauma she's endured. Carter Marquez. Newly single after being dumped by his girlfriend of two years. After losing his dad in a car accident he's fallen apart. The list of people he trusts is short, he hates letting people in. He's constantly trying to make up for his mistakes of the past, trying to find a new purpose in life. When the two of them collided, they instantly took a mutual disliking to each other. Misunderstandings and a dash of alcohol set a flame between them. Sophia hates the snarky remarks and stupid nicknames that leave his mouth. Carter thinks Sophia is just another trust fund brat. Soon their rivalry begins to dissolve and they learn that sharing the pain of their past can form connections they never thought to be possible. WARNING: This story contains mature topics such as sexual assault and drug addiction. Read with caution. Copyright © by lulustoriesss 2021