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Everything I Wanted (But Didn't Know I Needed)

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agentcarter bridgetregan bullying carterwood comingofage dottieunderwood growth hayleyatwell lesbians marvel peggycarter ptsd trauma wlw youngadult

we all need that someone, who gets you like no one
knows right when you need them the most
we all need a soul to rely on, a shoulder to cry on
a friend through the highs and the lows

~~~~~

After being rescued from the red room in Russia by the SSR, Dottie Underwood was fostered by Ana and Edwin Jarvis in Manhattan. Starting a completely new life in a new country where everyone was speaking a language she could barely understand was terrifying to Dottie.

But it wasn't nearly as terrifying to her as the red room. Everything she endured, everything she was forced to do.... it haunted her. Battling PTSD, learning a complicated language, un-learning everything she ever knew, it was all just so hard.

Ana, who was the principal of her new school, tried everything to help her. English tutors, therapy, social outings, anything she could to help prepare her for school. Over the summer, she did very well. But it all changed when she started at Stark-Frost Academy. Physically speaking, the bullies were nothing compared to the red room. Mentally speaking? As much as she tried to hide it, the words cut deeper than the knives she used to throw.

And then she met Peggy Carter. Perfect grades, perfect family, perfect smile, perfect nose, perfect friends, perfect life. God, Dottie hated her. Peggy was everything that she knew she could never be. And that infuriated her.

So what will happen when Principal Jarvis enlists Peggy to help Dottie adjust to her new life? Will Dottie's jealousy towards Peggy drive a wedge in her path of redemption? Or will it only ignite the rising flame between them?

~~~~~

Modern Day Carterwood High School AU

Highest rank:
#8 in #carterwood

⚠️ TRIGGER WARNINGS ⚠️
Bullying, slurs (censored), PTSD episode, physical violence, small scene with animal dissection in a classroomAll Rights Reserved

agentcarter bridgetregan bullying carterwood comingofage dottieunderwood growth hayleyatwell lesbians marvel peggycarter ptsd trauma wlw youngadult

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