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Everything I Wanted (But Didn't Know I Needed)

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we all need that someone, who gets you like no one
knows right when you need them the most
we all need a soul to rely on, a shoulder to cry on
a friend through the highs and the lows

~~~~~

After being rescued from the red room in Russia by the SSR, Dottie Underwood was fostered by Ana and Edwin Jarvis in Manhattan. Starting a completely new life in a new country where everyone was speaking a language she could barely understand was terrifying to Dottie.

But it wasn't nearly as terrifying to her as the red room. Everything she endured, everything she was forced to do.... it haunted her. Battling PTSD, learning a complicated language, un-learning everything she ever knew, it was all just so hard.

Ana, who was the principal of her new school, tried everything to help her. English tutors, therapy, social outings, anything she could to help prepare her for school. Over the summer, she did very well. But it all changed when she started at Stark-Frost Academy. Physically speaking, the bullies were nothing compared to the red room. Mentally speaking? As much as she tried to hide it, the words cut deeper than the knives she used to throw.

And then she met Peggy Carter. Perfect grades, perfect family, perfect smile, perfect nose, perfect friends, perfect life. God, Dottie hated her. Peggy was everything that she knew she could never be. And that infuriated her.

So what will happen when Principal Jarvis enlists Peggy to help Dottie adjust to her new life? Will Dottie's jealousy towards Peggy drive a wedge in her path of redemption? Or will it only ignite the rising flame between them?

~~~~~

Modern Day Carterwood High School AU

Highest rank:
#8 in #carterwood

⚠️ TRIGGER WARNINGS ⚠️
Bullying, slurs (censored), PTSD episode, physical violence, small scene with animal dissection in a classroomAll Rights Reserved

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Fly Away (OLD VERSION) by strawberry-jam

An idea popped into my somewhat witty brain. "Ooh, can I call you 'Mophead', since that's what your hair looks like?" He laughed. The way his eyes lit up and the melodic ring of his voice was so freaking hot. He flicked his head to the side in an attempt to get his hair out of his face... Zack's voice snapped me out of my hopeless swooning. "No, but you can call me anytime," he replied with a flirtatious wink. ~~~ Sixteen year old Raven Westfield is searching for a fresh start after a horrible accident that ruined her life. She desperately needs to be in a new place, where nobody knows of her dark past of a ruined reputation, lies, and betrayal, so she leaves everything behind to start over in a new state. Zachary Anderson is the untouchable Golden Boy of Rosewood High School. With his charming looks and genius brain, all the girls want to be with him and all the guys want to be him. But what they don't know is that Zack isn't as perfect as everyone thinks. Through a whirlwind of secrets, love, memories, and friendship, the two discover their pasts are more similar than they realize. What happens when two broken people come together? Do their missing puzzle pieces match... or cause a mess? Started: June 2018 Finished: April 21, 2020 Cover by: ucancallmerose *Cliche-ish warning* **TW: Includes strong language and flashbacks involving abuse/self harm/suicide***

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Ariana has seen her fair share of homes, of families. Born in London, Ariana has travelled around the world searching for a family to care for her and not die. She views herself to be a curse, a parasite. It doesn't help that she had some of these destructive thoughts planted into her head of course. What happens when famous billionaire, playboy, philanthropist, Tony Stark makes a drunk mistake agreeing to take care of some kid? How will the Avengers react to having a teenager living with them? Will it end up really being a mistake? With Ariana having more secrets than she can count, will she ever open up to these so-called "heroes"? Will she ever let them come past her steel barriers? We can only hope she does before it's too late for her. Best rankings so far: #1 in parasite #1 in ironmansdaughter #1 in fosterfamily #1 in orphan #1 in foundfamily #1 in samwilson #1 in falcon #1 in ptsd #1 in pepperpotts #1 in hurt-comfort #2 in abused #4 in brucebanner #8 in wintersoldier #9 in steverogers #9 in marvel #10 in tonystark #13 in avengers Some triggering topics are addressed or hinted at throughout this book, such as self harm, abuse, and sexual abuse of a minor please read with caution if you know that you get easily triggered. ‼️Spoiler Alert:‼️ This story does not have a happy ending. Don't complain about it or make hateful comments. If you don't think you can do that, don't read it.

The Fluffy Adventures of Yelena and Bucky by Em1The2Crispy3

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the red widow and captain carter by natsgirlf

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Glitch 2.0 | Book 2【Garroth X Reader】[ Completed ] by Mariko_Akiyama

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Dirty Little Olive by roxierocks99

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