Crushed
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Last published Thu, Apr 17, 2025
Jax Martin was my first love-the kind that never really fades, no matter how much you wish it would.
He was trouble from the start-reckless, untouchable, the boy everyone warned me about. But I never listened. For years, we existed in the space between something and nothing, caught in a game neither of us dared to finish. Stolen glances. Almosts. What-ifs.
And then he left. No goodbyes, no explanations. Just gone.
Now, he's back-more infuriating, more untouchable than ever, wreaking havoc like he never left. But the boy I once knew is nothing more than a ghost. This Jax is colder, crueler, hardened by whatever happened in the years between then and now.
I should hate him for it. I should walk away like he did. But the problem with almost-love is that it never really lets you go. And no matter how much I try to convince myself otherwise, I know the truth: I never stopped watching Jax Martin. And I don't think I ever will.
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I just close my eyes. Feeling him. Smelling him. Just existing close to him. My fingers clutch at his shirt, like it's the only thing keeping me from doing something reckless. Something completely, irrevocably stupid. Like kissing my son's best friend. And it feels so wrong. Oh God. So damn wrong. But then- His thumb shifts against my skin. A slow, lazy stroke. And suddenly, it feels so right. SO DAMN RIGHT. I breathe in too sharply. Mistake. He notices. Of course, he notices. His grip on my hips tightens. "You always this tense?" I force out a breath. "You always this annoying?" Leo laughs under his breath. "Only when I'm right." I tilt my head, and his eyes are already waiting for me-dark, unreadable, impossibly close. His fingers brush just above my waist. Barely there, but enough. Enough to make me hyper-aware of how easy it'd be to- "You wear this every night, don't you?" It takes me half a second to register what he means. The hoodie. His hoodie. *** 💔 She never expected to fall for him. 🔥 He never stopped waiting for her. 🏡 But some love stories don't follow the rules. Jenny Thompson moved to start fresh. A new neighborhood, a new home, a new beginning. What she didn't expect? Leo Mitchell. Her son's best friend. Fifteen years younger. And looking at her like she's something he's never stopped wanting. She tells herself it's nothing. She tells herself it can't happen. But then- 💬 "I don't know how to stop wanting this." 🔥 "Then don't." 📖 A slow-burn, emotional age-gap romance about love, healing, and the risk of wanting more. ** Taboo. Age gap. Off-limits tension. A love that shouldn't exist-but try stopping it.**
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