confusion
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Last published Sat, Feb 14, 2026
this book is special to me.
each chapter is going to be an email that i sent to myself.
the backstory here is that recently, i've been having a lot of thoughts about a special someone, and i didn't feel like i could talk to my friends about them. so i thought i would pour my heart into an email and send it to myself!
it was a smart idea, but i knew that my mom was going to find out about it somehow. so i figured i would put it online, on a place where my parents would never go. wattpad.
but a lot of these emails are about my special person, and they don't know i'm doing this. yes, they are on wattpad. no, i dont want them to find this.
so now, i'm posting this shit that i've been hiding for so long, in a book on an alt account to the entire internet and i'm hoping that my parents and friends dont find it.
i'm such an idiot.
take a look at my bio if you want more information, and thanks for wasting your time on this.
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