Shameless - A Bucky Barnes Story (Hiatus)

I wish it was as easy as everyone said.

It was one night, move on.

Well, they didn't know how much damage had been done that night.

Bucky Barnes had ruined me from any other man, he had opened a part of me that no one had ever gotten close to before and he had released desires I'd never known existed. He had opened himself to me in a way no one else had ever seen, we had been two pieces to the same soul.

All in one night.

And then he was gone.

I'm not going to lie and say I moved on from that night because I did the complete opposite. I tried in vain to find him again, but he disappeared like the ghost of his former self. I carried on but I always had him in the back of my mind, brief encounters that made memories flare in mind always brought him back to the forefront. Whether it was remembering a specific moment in time or something that reminded me of his eyes, I couldn't escape the haunting of his ghost that surrounded me.

Everything was dull, nothing excited me or piqued my interest enough to move forward. I still held the same job as a waitress in an old worn down diner on the outskirts of town, I still hung around the same two friends that tried to bring me back to reality but why would I want to come back to earth when I had seen heaven so high above?

What that man did to me should be considered downright criminal but damn if it wasn't something I craved again. I would spend my last dollar to feel that way again, to be the center of someone's universe in such a consuming way- just for one more night. Why did being someone's soulmate cause so much pain?

A Soulmate story.