My Intrusive Thoughts
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MatureOngoing<5 mins
Last published Tue, Feb 28, 2023
TW- This book might contain suicidal or very dark thoughts, if you aren't comfortable, don't read this.
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Just me and my unwanted, scary and sickening thoughts that come to me all the time. Never liked them, never will but they do teach me alot about this world. Dark. Deep. Creepy. A black hole. That's how I describe them.
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Published: 13/9/2022
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Hope you enjoy
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