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I look alive I'm dead inside <Crew>

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The young female looked outside her window, watching the rain fall slowly. "Raven, what can I give you to make you feel better?" The male asked sitting next to her. "Nothing. As long as I'm stuck in this hell of a world nothing can replace this." She said and he sighed. "What about friendship, trust, love?" She glanced up slightly with some glee in her eyes. "Trust? Friendship?" He nodded and a slight smile appeared. "I would like to see what those things are. Can you teach me?" She asked and he nodded quickly, the smile widening.

Raven has never had the best life. Bullied, pushed down, her alcoholic parent She was forced to grow up fast and learn to never have fun, smile, or laugh. One day her mother kicked her out, forcing to live on the streets. A young male finds her only to try to make her happy again.All Rights Reserved

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Nobody can fix me if I'm part of the problem
Mon, Feb 9, 2015

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Nobody can fix me if I'm part of the problem
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