I'm Tired
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Life has always been harsh to me,
Since then I just want to be free.
Free from problems, free from agony,
I just want to end all of my misery.
I'm tired and hopeless,
Ending my life would be the best option I guess.
There's this hole in my heart that I can't fill up,
It feels like all this time I've been so much fucked up.
I've been suffering for too long.
My life has been always this ugly sad song.
I've put many people down,
They're so many I can fill up a whole town.
I've been hiding in my mask since then,
It's too long that I can't remember why or how or when.
But this time I really can't handle it,
I'm tired of making mistakes and all this shit.
I'm in pain,
All this time I've been under this endless rain.
You can't blame me,
I've been tortured by life for too long and I alone can see.
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