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Losing Your Memory
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XxTani05
Complete, First published Sep 24, 2022
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The mind replays what the heart can't delete.
After more than fifty years of careful conditioning, the Winter Soldier is malfunctioning, and James "Bucky" Barnes is waking up.


"The first time the Soldier heard the song, he was being prepped for the chair after a mission.
[...] The lyrics were coming back now. A soundtrack to the mess that were his memories slowly resurfacing. Confusing. Contradicting. Mixing with realty. Right. Wrong. Happy. Sad. Hurt. Bucky. Sergeant Barnes. Зимний солдат."


Song fic inspired by the notes of Losing Your Memory by Ryan Star
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