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Bed-Time

SamanthaBurkhardt

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SamanthaBurkhardt

depression suicide

I just love bedtime I can be alone to myself
Why can’t my whole life be like this
No one bothering me I can be myself
Instead of this nightmare I am living&nbsp;
Why can’t I just dream my own dream&nbsp;
live my own-life
But I have figured out that is impossible
I can’t live a life that I don’t own
I don’t own my life and I am tired
Tired of all the bullshit in “my” life
I just feel like I could sleep for eternity
in my own dream
Sleep feels so nice and peaceful
When I pull the covers over me i’m warm
I close my eyes and the darkness consumes
Everything around me and I live in it
I can think in the darkness of sleep
I just love it
So I take the bottle out and take off the lid
I count the pills there are thirty left
I hold them in my hand and look at them
If I take them I can sleep forever in my dream
If I don’t I continue to live in this nightmare
So I swallow them
My body gets this warm feeling inside
It feels just like the covers feel just a little pressure
I start to feel drowsy and so I close my eyes
The darkness I love so much surrounds me
I can finally sleep forever I feel at peace
GoodnightAll Rights Reserved

depression suicide

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