The Wretched Mind

Hey!Everyone has a story to tell and here I'm not alone...
So this is a story of a young, teenage girl who has been through many ups and downs in her life... Yes, this is my story that I am going to share it here...
Firstly want to know how people live for years? I'm just fed up at this young age .You know, my point of view about life was something different in my childhood I used to enjoy every moment of my life I was living with my own feelings and emotions and every time i wanted to know where these people go when they die... I was too close to my mum the thought of separation was just killing me from inside. I was like a boy and was having some boylike desires and wishes hahaha! Yes, sometimes I was thinking why God has made me a girl you know why I was thinking this all because I am not having a brother so when I was born not everyone was happy as I was the 4th daughter of my family...leave this aside let's move to another chapter of my life. So my life changed completely when my father left me. He just left me with some griefs and sadness... Day before he died he told me to promise him. He said with the whimpering voice that my child I'm going to leave now tomorrow you will be an orphan and remember this not to cry when I will die because when you will cry my soul will not have a peace in the heaven.i told him why you were saying like this you are going no where you will be always here with me but night passed away and my father left me. From then I promised myself that you are going to be the best cardio dr. Because I wanted to treat heart patients as my father was suffering from that problem.