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Nkoli

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"Some days I wonder why I'm still here".
Have you ever felt like you don't even know how you're feeling,
Like you're not yourself or you don't even know who yourself is anymore,
Do you seek an escape from the pain, emptiness, darkness and sadness. Does it feel like freedom may only come In death for you. 
Then come on these journey with me. It's my hope that as you read through the pages of this book you feel even a little less alone in your struggles with mental health. I have been there too. Some days are better than the others and this book is a reminder of how far I've come and an invitation into a part of myself that struggles with despair. The feelings are real true and the words aren't sugar coated but I'm still here. I hope they help you choose to stay too .
Xoxo
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His innocent obsession by Roraprinz

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