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"I'm nothing but a monster." || Depressed Bakugou

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angstwithhappyending depressedbakugou todobakudeku

⚠️⚠️TW: kidnapping, rape, abuse, bullying, cutting, eating disorders, suicidal thoughts and attempts⚠️⚠️

"Who knew that a rant could change everything?"

Ever since Bakugou was rescued from the lov, he's been acting differently. He was quiet, scared, and got emotional easily. It was like his personality did a 180. 

He had panic attacks when people touched certain parts of his body, or restrained him. 

But there was one thing happening that bothered Bakugou. Everything was about Deku. It was always Deku this, and Deku that. 

They were acting like Deku was the one who was kidnapped. But, why wouldn't it be about him? Deku was perfect; strong, confident, All Might was his mentor, and everyone loved him, Deku was like the prince of 1-A. 

While he was just a self absorbed, cocky, weak brat that got kidnapped, abused, and raped by villains.

 He tried talking to the others about it but they acted like he didn't exist. Then he found out why.

 Deku revealed what happened between him and Bakugou in middle school to everyone, like how Bakugou bullied him all the time and told the greenette to kill himself. So they all hated Bakugou.

 He tried to explain his side of the story, but nobody would listen. His friends told him that they're not going to be friends with a monster like him anymore. The people that made him happy left him, when he needed them the most. 

He had nobody to talk to besides the stuffed animals from his childhood he kept in his room. But Deku, the only person who didn't hate him, started to worry about him. 

He started cutting, taking pills, and he'd go out late at night and over work his body and quirk till he passed out. He'd never leave his room, never ate, never went to class or hero training anymore. 

 Deku was worried about him, he didn't want this to happen, he just ranted to the Dekusquad one night. 

Then it was Bakugou's birthday when Deku made the most shocking and upsetting discovery of all.All Rights Reserved

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Basically, It's another story about Aizawa finding out about the bullying problems Midoriya has had/ is having. Also includes Present Mic and All Might being worried dads. _ When Midoriya finally made it into UA, He knew it would be different. He wasn't sure how much, but it had to be different! Of course, the work and how the school works would be different, but he hoped the people there would be different, too. Mostly because he had a quirk now. He wasn't useless anymore and he was definitely not quirkless anymore. In all honesty, Midoriya didn't expect all the kindness he was receiving from his peers and teachers. Surely, the teachers knew he was quirkless beforehand, right? If they knew.. then why didn't they hate him? Besides All Might, he expected them to dislike him. (Midoriya only thought All Might cared because he used to be quirkless too.. but it was better than nothing.) However, with his friends, he was happier. He didn't even know how to act around friends, but he tried.. Even if deep down Midoriya knew he couldn't trust anybody-- And he didnt trust anybody-- he still tried. Oh well, why didn't he trust them? Simple. He had the mindset that, 'If they knew he was quirkless, it would be middle school all over again.' He was protecting himself, just in case they found out. If they found out and stopped being friends with him, well it would be okay. He was prepared. He had to be. So, in the end, he didn't tell anybody about his old quirkless ways. Not that he had to tell anybody, right? He had a quirk, so it shouldn't matter anymore, right? Wrong. Who says the bullying and its effects ever go away? How would he ever be able to explain the messages he gets during the day from old classmates? How would he ever explain that it's all getting to him more than he knows it should? _ [My Hero Academia belongs to Kohei Horikoshi] I might make a second chapter, but if I don't it's still complete!

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Villain's Origins || A Twist in Time [Boku no Hero Academia Villain Au Book 1] by bblehh1202

WARNING: Viewer discretion advised. This story contains descriptions of murder, suicide, sex, and other mature content. Spoilers also ahead. ~~ What if Deku wasn't born quirkless? What if the reason for Katsuki's hurtful words had to do with the dark past Inko desperately tried to keep hidden from the outside world? What if becoming a hero wasn't the answer after all? ~~ My eyes widen. "I've decided. Young man, you will inherit my quirk." I let out a sigh of relief, laying down on the ground as my anxiety fades. I'm overwhelmed with joy, tears streaming down my face as my body is overcome with brutal exhaustion. I don't plan on using this power to become a hero, but All Might doesn't need to know that. I can't think of being a hero, or anything else for now. I need to get stronger, even stronger than my father. Wait for me mom, Kacchan, I'm coming. ~~ After that night, things only became harder for Izuku. The mental pressure was too much, to the extent that it took an unhealthy turn. Izuku could barely handle the pressure of having no one to rely on, torn between becoming a hero and being taught how to assassinate by the killer of heroes. It wasn't long before his sanity began to split. ~~ "It's okay. Honestly, you're the first person I've met who doesn't think my quirk is more suited to become a villain.." Shinsou said. After spending so much time with villains, I no longer thought of the word the same. "If you ask villains their story, you'll probably think they'd make pretty good protagonists. We always see things from the hero's perspective but we rarely ask how the villain ended up the way they are. The heroes are the real villains if you ask any villain, and even villains can be a hero to someone." ~~ I killed someone. I know he deserved it, yet I still couldn't look down at my own hands the same. Dried blood covered the bandages I wore around my wrists when I train with Stain. I had no choice but to accept it. I became a hero killer.

$Guess Who //Villain Deku AU\\ by Takyio$

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Falling (Depressed Deku Fanfic) (COMPLETE) by WholeLotOfDeku

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Time Changes Us (DekuBaku) by Kilanna2016

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Medicine // Bakudeku Fanfic by KatsukisBlanket

Deku, a 14-year-old fanboy, struggles with something seemingly unsignificant but unpermits him to become the greatest hero of all time. He never realized, or it never bothered him when he was a younger kid. But what he did not know was that those minor feelings and affection drastically grew unnoticeably, eventually turning it into something disadvantageous. He thought it was admiration, but it was only the cause of that. He thought it was only teenage development, but it was nothing like that. And, well, what did that person do when they found out that they were what surpassed his medication? The one that triggered them into being another person? They took advantage of it, turning it into a complicated relationship. Warning: Mature Content. This is not a romance fanfic. It contains the following: - Drugs - Bullying - Profanity - Violence - Yaoi - Abuse - Etc. Middle School AU (Soon will change as the plot develops) I do not own My Hero Academia, the pictures, nor the characters. Cover and Art by me. --- FINISHED Start: 30.3.21 Finish: 16.12.21

Dear, BAKA-gou (BNHA AU) (DISCONTINUED) by Aheago_Amigo

'He must be scared of you, Midoriya! Scaredy, Cat-suki!' In this AU, we have Mean!Deku and Nice!Bakugo. It has always been like this, Bakugo being the direct target of all of Deku's sly comments. Deku has always been the one to be looked up to, even without a quirk he was by far the smartest, sportiest and most popular kid in school. Everyone adored his hero-likeness. Bakugo, on the other hand, has been the social punch-bag. His uncontrolable quirk, his anger issues, and his quick, irrational reactions, let alone his low-grades and the amount of times he has got into trouble with the teachers. Everyone hated his ambitions to become a hero. When Deku easily passed his way into UA, and Bakugo struggled to get into the suggestions list, a fire sparked within him. 'I wonder if I can become better than him...' 'I want to become better than him...' 'I can become better than him...' 'I will become better than him...' 'I NEED to become better than him...' Emotions fight with each other as new ones emerge, the suppressed ones that have never been revealed before. Desires and callings that have never been able to escape before are starting to break down the walls. A deadly secret kept by Deku that he was to carry to his early grave... All the while, a love story blooms. (BakuDeku, KatsuDeku, etc) (Maybe NSFW) (Picture isn't made by me, thanks to a person on Pinterest)

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Basically, It's another story about Aizawa finding out about the bullying problems Midoriya has had/ is having. Also includes Present Mic and All Might being worried dads. _ When Midoriya finally made it into UA, He knew it would be different. He wasn't sure how much, but it had to be different! Of course, the work and how the school works would be different, but he hoped the people there would be different, too. Mostly because he had a quirk now. He wasn't useless anymore and he was definitely not quirkless anymore. In all honesty, Midoriya didn't expect all the kindness he was receiving from his peers and teachers. Surely, the teachers knew he was quirkless beforehand, right? If they knew.. then why didn't they hate him? Besides All Might, he expected them to dislike him. (Midoriya only thought All Might cared because he used to be quirkless too.. but it was better than nothing.) However, with his friends, he was happier. He didn't even know how to act around friends, but he tried.. Even if deep down Midoriya knew he couldn't trust anybody-- And he didnt trust anybody-- he still tried. Oh well, why didn't he trust them? Simple. He had the mindset that, 'If they knew he was quirkless, it would be middle school all over again.' He was protecting himself, just in case they found out. If they found out and stopped being friends with him, well it would be okay. He was prepared. He had to be. So, in the end, he didn't tell anybody about his old quirkless ways. Not that he had to tell anybody, right? He had a quirk, so it shouldn't matter anymore, right? Wrong. Who says the bullying and its effects ever go away? How would he ever be able to explain the messages he gets during the day from old classmates? How would he ever explain that it's all getting to him more than he knows it should? _ [My Hero Academia belongs to Kohei Horikoshi] I might make a second chapter, but if I don't it's still complete!