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"I'm nothing but a monster." || Depressed Bakugou

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⚠️⚠️TW: kidnapping, rape, abuse, bullying, cutting, eating disorders, suicidal thoughts and attempts⚠️⚠️

"Who knew that a rant could change everything?"

Ever since Bakugou was rescued from the lov, he's been acting differently. He was quiet, scared, and got emotional easily. It was like his personality did a 180. 

He had panic attacks when people touched certain parts of his body, or restrained him. 

But there was one thing happening that bothered Bakugou. Everything was about Deku. It was always Deku this, and Deku that. 

They were acting like Deku was the one who was kidnapped. But, why wouldn't it be about him? Deku was perfect; strong, confident, All Might was his mentor, and everyone loved him, Deku was like the prince of 1-A. 

While he was just a self absorbed, cocky, weak brat that got kidnapped, abused, and raped by villains.

 He tried talking to the others about it but they acted like he didn't exist. Then he found out why.

 Deku revealed what happened between him and Bakugou in middle school to everyone, like how Bakugou bullied him all the time and told the greenette to kill himself. So they all hated Bakugou.

 He tried to explain his side of the story, but nobody would listen. His friends told him that they're not going to be friends with a monster like him anymore. The people that made him happy left him, when he needed them the most. 

He had nobody to talk to besides the stuffed animals from his childhood he kept in his room. But Deku, the only person who didn't hate him, started to worry about him. 

He started cutting, taking pills, and he'd go out late at night and over work his body and quirk till he passed out. He'd never leave his room, never ate, never went to class or hero training anymore. 

 Deku was worried about him, he didn't want this to happen, he just ranted to the Dekusquad one night. 

Then it was Bakugou's birthday when Deku made the most shocking and upsetting discovery of all.All Rights Reserved

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Dear, BAKA-gou (BNHA AU) (DISCONTINUED) by Aheago_Amigo

'He must be scared of you, Midoriya! Scaredy, Cat-suki!' In this AU, we have Mean!Deku and Nice!Bakugo. It has always been like this, Bakugo being the direct target of all of Deku's sly comments. Deku has always been the one to be looked up to, even without a quirk he was by far the smartest, sportiest and most popular kid in school. Everyone adored his hero-likeness. Bakugo, on the other hand, has been the social punch-bag. His uncontrolable quirk, his anger issues, and his quick, irrational reactions, let alone his low-grades and the amount of times he has got into trouble with the teachers. Everyone hated his ambitions to become a hero. When Deku easily passed his way into UA, and Bakugo struggled to get into the suggestions list, a fire sparked within him. 'I wonder if I can become better than him...' 'I want to become better than him...' 'I can become better than him...' 'I will become better than him...' 'I NEED to become better than him...' Emotions fight with each other as new ones emerge, the suppressed ones that have never been revealed before. Desires and callings that have never been able to escape before are starting to break down the walls. A deadly secret kept by Deku that he was to carry to his early grave... All the while, a love story blooms. (BakuDeku, KatsuDeku, etc) (Maybe NSFW) (Picture isn't made by me, thanks to a person on Pinterest)

Eye Spy by CloudyXAutumn

"I despise of many things but...I despise you the most, All Might" After a life changing incident that leaves his image of hero society askew, he takes matters into his own hands. Even with a quirk that isn't all too powerful in it of itself, he still makes heroes struggle to figure out just who he is. He somehow always knows their next move, but why is that the case? Was it his quirk or just his sheer intelligence...? He became the heroes' biggest problem, yet remained unknown. Just who was he...? No one would ever believe it was a mere 15 year old. Or a highschooler that had been attending the most prestigious highschool in all of Japan... So what did they do when it happened to be the case? Villain deku Au Disclaimer. I own nothing but the idea and do not condone any of the character's actions. The actions done in this book are not to be replicated. Also TW⚠️ this book contains graphic content including but not limited to torture scenes

●COMPLETED● Facade (BNHA Fanfiction) by hgffghhhhh

●COMPLETED● (Fa-cade) noun An outward appearance that is maintained to conceal a less pleasant or creditable reality. Bakugou Katsuki kept up the Facade his entire life. Nobody knows the truth. About the pain he feels when having to go home for the holidays. The pain when he's alone in his bed at night, not being able to sleep. The pain he feels when any one of his friends write him off as strong. Or temper-filled. Or anger-issued. They don't know the truth. They don't know anything! And how Katsuki wanted to tell them. The things he's gone through. But people wouldn't care. He's Bakugou fucking Katsuki. He's the strong, loud, violent, and angry one. The one with no feelings at all. Or not being able to... feel. When all he does is feel. All he does is drown his emotions in drinks, drugs, and blades. But if he spoke out, they'd hate him. Hate him for what he got himself into. For the way he got addicted to the drinking, smoking, and cutting so easily. So fast. And his mother didn't care. She's never cared. He opened up, and she told him to toughen up. To just... be anything... but himself. Be a Facade. ~~~ Just FWI, I freaking love Mitsuki. But, she is a 'bit' abusive towards Katsuki. And that time she hit him in front of Aizawa and All Might, he acted like it happens daily. (Which I'm sure it does) UPDATE: nvm I hate Mitsuki (I'm not sorry-) Warnings! Cutting Underage Drinking Smoking Drugs Abuse Attempted Suicide Eating Disorders Couples (Please don't drop the story cause of these. Most these are background) Shinkami JirouxSero IidaxOchako TsuxTokoyami Tododeku Kiribaku

Questions to Live By by Errow77

Midoriya Izuku was ambitious. He always pushed until he fell. He never gave up, not once did he fall and stay down. Not even when his idol told him that his dream was illogical--that in reality he will only get in the way. So he made a set of recordings and set up an anonymous channel. He approached many people and asked them variants of the same question: "Can a quirkless person become a hero?" No matter the answer though, he was broken inside. His dreams and hopes were shattered a long time ago. But he isn't ready to take a swan dive just yet. He wants to meet one person who will tell him that he is not useless. That he can be a hero. And after that moment, he will decide if he's ready to take a swan dive off the roof of a building or not. Some of the chapters will be quite triggering. I will put a warning beside each chapter title that includes detailed descriptions of triggering topics. The characters do not belong to me, only the plot. Characters belong to the anime Boku No Hero Acadamia and it's creator. I did the drawing up at the top, it's not the full image though.

𝘠𝘰𝘶 𝘈𝘳𝘦 𝘕𝘰𝘵 𝘞𝘰𝘳𝘵𝘩𝘭𝘦𝘴𝘴 ~ MHA/Dadzawa ONESHOT by cringey_noob

Basically, It's another story about Aizawa finding out about the bullying problems Midoriya has had/ is having. Also includes Present Mic and All Might being worried dads. _ When Midoriya finally made it into UA, He knew it would be different. He wasn't sure how much, but it had to be different! Of course, the work and how the school works would be different, but he hoped the people there would be different, too. Mostly because he had a quirk now. He wasn't useless anymore and he was definitely not quirkless anymore. In all honesty, Midoriya didn't expect all the kindness he was receiving from his peers and teachers. Surely, the teachers knew he was quirkless beforehand, right? If they knew.. then why didn't they hate him? Besides All Might, he expected them to dislike him. (Midoriya only thought All Might cared because he used to be quirkless too.. but it was better than nothing.) However, with his friends, he was happier. He didn't even know how to act around friends, but he tried.. Even if deep down Midoriya knew he couldn't trust anybody-- And he didnt trust anybody-- he still tried. Oh well, why didn't he trust them? Simple. He had the mindset that, 'If they knew he was quirkless, it would be middle school all over again.' He was protecting himself, just in case they found out. If they found out and stopped being friends with him, well it would be okay. He was prepared. He had to be. So, in the end, he didn't tell anybody about his old quirkless ways. Not that he had to tell anybody, right? He had a quirk, so it shouldn't matter anymore, right? Wrong. Who says the bullying and its effects ever go away? How would he ever be able to explain the messages he gets during the day from old classmates? How would he ever explain that it's all getting to him more than he knows it should? _ [My Hero Academia belongs to Kohei Horikoshi] I might make a second chapter, but if I don't it's still complete!

LOVESTRUCK (Deku x Everyone) (dark) by villianizuku101

Izuku Midoriya never had a quirk. Never had power. Never had control. That all changed the night a villain pinned him down, breath hot against his skin, and stole his first kiss. The moment their lips met, something inside him broke open-something monstrous. A quirk that twists desire into obsession, warping men's minds, making them hunger for him, worship him, obey him. He barely escaped. But he's not safe. Now, at U.A., every stare lingers too long, every classmate fears his power. His quirk doesn't just draw people in-it drowns them in want, in madness. Labeled Devil Cupid by the media, even the heroes who swear to protect him fear his abilities. And the villain who awakened it? He's still out there. Watching. Waiting. Because Izuku Midoriya isn't just some quirked-up accident. He's a prize. A weapon. Something to be possessed. And soon... he'll be his again. -- This story confronts the dark twisted truth of hero's. How fear controls people. How obsession drives them. Nothing is sugarcoated. This isn't some fluff fanfic. Read at your own risk. This is not for the faint of heart. ⚠️ WARNING ⚠️ This story contains sensitive topics like -Abuse -Non-existent consent -Assault -Smut -Just warning for everything really -This is really fucked up -Like really fucked up

What Happens in the Pit by Caelan_94

BakuDeku - Midoriya Izuku found himself quirkless and quickly at the non-existent mercy of his classmates as he entered middle school. Every day he survived, he was beating the odds, even as the bruises teased at his nerves through his skin, taunting him long after his tormentors' fists had last made physical contact. When he found the fighting ring, he expected to just become a living punching bag, really. He didn't expect people to look past his quirklessness and take him under their wing, essentially training their own competition. He didn't expect to get good at it, and he didn't expect to be noticed when he did. When Izuku and Katsuki got accepted into UA, the class cheered for Katsuki and jeered at Izuku for daring to pretend to be in the same league as someone like Katsuki, even when Izuku only managed to make it into general studies. So, Katsuki went to UA, and Izuku quietly said, "thanks for the opportunity, but no thanks," and switched to an advanced online schooling option. It was just the rule of the world, and rules were rules. Some things couldn't be helped. Besides... He had a feeling UA would ask too many questions about the constant bruising blooming so beautifully across his face that Aldera staff had so pointedly ignored. And even if UA didn't ask questions about the bruises and abrasions on his face, they definitely would about the ones across his busted knuckles. In the Pit, Midoriya Izuku didn't exist. In the Pit, he was Viper. In the Pit, Viper was a quirkless fighter who still faced prejudice and bias, but everyone fought quirkless in the Pit, so at least it was a level playing field. In the real world, Midoriya Izuku put on a smile and explained his bruises away on him being quirkless and finding himself in the wrong place at the wrong time. In the Pit, Viper fought back viciously quick and calculating, earning every bruise and giving back just as many. And sometimes he even won.

Retrouvailles (Completed) by Demonic0Angel_

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It's So Good To Be Bad Villain Izuku AU by Yesimdisgusting

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