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Not so private Diary

X_The_Lonely_God

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I've been having dreams that's been making it hard for me to distinguish between dream and reality, I often try to stay awake at night because of this but it sent me to the hospital and I don't want to go through that again. 

I told my friends about this whole BS but they think I'm joking and I dont even bother with my parents anymore who keeps on minimizing shit because they don't want to spend any time on me

Since keeping things to myself might lead me to break down in public, again, I'll just post it here for a sense of reliefAll Rights Reserved

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