Consume

'These voices in my head screaming run now, I'm praying that they're human.'

Silas would do it all again if it meant stopping Feyre from going with the beast. He would have made sure that the thing killed him then, finished what he had started. Perhaps in another time, in another universe where the beast had almost killed him, he would kill the beast.
Arin wanted to die, she wanted to rot on the walls of the mountain, stay there and end her suffering. Each time that the Deceiver does it the more that it hurts. She wished that she had stayed, not went Rhys some days but even now she wished that she could do it all over again.
Or perhaps, they would have met each other anyway.
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