My Diaries
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Ongoing11m
Last published Tue, Oct 25, 2022
Just my life
How My life is....
Who I am....
Why I am like this ...
Why my life is getting more and more difficult as the time went by?...
Feels like I am slowly slowly dieing as days goes...
Why I am getting lonely like this?
Will I ever will able to change myself?
The answer is always no for me
How funny right?
My fate is playing with me I guess...
But please can you show a little bit mercy....
Please 🥺...
It's getting hard to even breath...
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