"A dream-like love in a life-like nightmare." Sometimes you meet people and you instantly know they came into your life for a reason. After that, you don't reason much with yourself, your feelings or your heart. You dream they become a part of your life - a part of you. But that is exactly where everything went wrong in my story. I saw him and after that I couldn't take my eyes off him until I feared looking into his eyes again. You believe you know someone until you realise that you never knew them from the very start. The people you knew do not even take a second to become the people you don't. The pain you feel then is obscured. You can't tell what hurts more: them turning into strangers in a matter of a few seconds or you pretending you never knew them. You hate them, but can't stop your heart and your body from craving for them - yearning for their touch and that is when you lose this game where rules are what he makes, where winning was never an option where losing was your fate. And everything you knew about yourself becomes obscure. Where losing yourself is the only way to find yourself and where everything you thought was the truth turns into an undeniable lie. But soon you realise that the only truth about this world that you needed to know was - everything in this world was obscure. Copyright ©️ AM, 2022 TRIGGER WARNINGS(tentative): #darkromance #childabuse #trauma #sexualcontent #mentalillness #mentaltrauma