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My Light (Danisnotonfire / Dan Howell fanfic) [EDITING]

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Time 3h 37m

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Dan Howell is a YouTuber, most well known as Danisnotonfire. Dan has let himself fall into a deep hole of depression which not even his best friend, Phil, can get him out of. Maybe all he needs is some one to love and a place where he can truly be himself.

Blossom Will is a poor girl. Her family was falling apart, and now she's been kicked out of the home by her abusive mother that somehow gained custody over Blossom and her sister, Issy. Why she was kicked out? Because she wasn't able to be accepted into university. Blossom needs a saviour to lift her from her life of abuse, depression, self-harm and anxiety. 

On one fateful day, Dan and Blossom meet. Dan immediately falls for Blossom, offering for her to stay with him and Phil after she was kicked out. Dan helps Blossom stop destroying herself and Blossom stops Dan from falling any further into depression. 

Will fate bring them together? Or time break them apart?All Rights Reserved

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