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My Light (Danisnotonfire / Dan Howell fanfic) [EDITING]

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Dan Howell is a YouTuber, most well known as Danisnotonfire. Dan has let himself fall into a deep hole of depression which not even his best friend, Phil, can get him out of. Maybe all he needs is some one to love and a place where he can truly be himself.

Blossom Will is a poor girl. Her family was falling apart, and now she's been kicked out of the home by her abusive mother that somehow gained custody over Blossom and her sister, Issy. Why she was kicked out? Because she wasn't able to be accepted into university. Blossom needs a saviour to lift her from her life of abuse, depression, self-harm and anxiety. 

On one fateful day, Dan and Blossom meet. Dan immediately falls for Blossom, offering for her to stay with him and Phil after she was kicked out. Dan helps Blossom stop destroying herself and Blossom stops Dan from falling any further into depression. 

Will fate bring them together? Or time break them apart?All Rights Reserved

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Hello Internet ✹ Phan by klutzyvegetarian7

[Complete] Phil was his first best friend in the eighteen years of his life. When Phil first started YouTube, his best friend died, and he hadn't met Dan yet. When they did meet, everything changed. - How conceited does one have to be to show no tolerance for the people they care about? - This story is strictly in the perspective of Dan Howell. MATURE CONTENT: NOT SUITABLE FOR YOUNGER DEMOGRAPHIC. POSSIBLY TRIGGERING. Contains: Self harm, abuse, attempted suicide, and sex. Strong language is used.

The Only One (Phan) [COMPLETE] by underscorekacie

"Phil Lester is the literal sunshine of my life. If I didn't have him in my life, I may have been dead by now. Every day still sucks, but whenever I'm with Phil, my heart remembers that life is worth living. The only reason my life is worth living is to be next to Phil. To see him smile, to hear him laugh, to listen to his voice, to watch him move...everything. Everything that he does brings the much-needed light into my life." Dan Howell has many struggles within himself, despite his successful YouTube career. The only one who truly helps him is his best mate, Phil Lester. Dan has been madly in love with Phil since the first day they met. However, Dan knows that it is inevitable that Phil will never return the feeling because he is only interested in women. As Dan attempts to battle his own demons, Phil seems to be quite happy and even ends up dating a beautiful girl. Unfortunately, this makes Dan's mental state even worse. What will happen to Dan? Will he ever confess his strong feelings for his best friend? Will he ever overcome the ongoing war in his head?

Roller Coaster Called Life // phan by armyhowell

Dan and Phil's lives are a mess. They finally decide to come out to the phandom. Will their decisions take a toll on their relationship? Not much of a description I can give I guess... Just be ready for a wave or two of PHEELS!!!! Warnings: • self-harm • suicide • depression • alcohol abuse • sad in general • language

Too Close (Phan) by WellThisIsAwkward49

Phil Lester is a well known youtuber. He hides behind the camera, he acts the way that he wants to but he scared to be himself at school. He's popular and he's not happy like that. Dan is sweet and rarely talks. He is always afraid that somebody will hurt him so he tries to stay away from people and emotions. Dan struggles with depression, selfharm, bullies, anorexia, a dark past, and being fostered by an abusive family. His mom and dad died when he was 13 and he blames himself everyday. His 7 year old sister is the only thing keeping him alive and sane. Phil feels bad for Dan, but he can't show it unless he wants to get hurt to. Little does Phil know, Dan is quickly losing control of his life. Read this book to go on this adventure with Dan and Phil. (Will mostly be written in Dan's POV) WARNINGS: This story will have very triggering content that deals with self harm, depression, self hatred, anorexia, abuse, harsh language, bullying, mentions of rape, bulimia, and anxiety. Please be careful reading my book and I am always here to talk if you need it. Also, Dan is shorter in this book, about 5'9" cause I have a thing with height.

I'm trying o.k? by Sunnies4Shade

Dan is highly depressed and falls for Phil, his best friend who tries to help him out of his self destructive path. Trigger warning -mention of self harm, death, eating disorders, alcoholism. Some personal views about these issues are expressed so I'm sorry if you don't agree with them but hey that's why I said "personal".

The Unknown. Phan AU by AllTimePhan73

Dan hated his life and that wasn't even an understatement. Each day he wished he had never woken up as he was tormented by those who were meant to love him. Just because they were meant to love him doesn't mean they did. He was suffering and was so close to giving up. Then he met Phil. Phil changed everything. TW: Abuse (both physical and emotional), depression, self harm, kind of a suicide attempt although the person doesn't get very far with it, Dan's kind of mute COVER CREDIT TO @DOODLE5SOS

Never forget me... by killingtimeanddreams

Dan has been missing for 2 years and Phil is slowly going crazy without him. When Dan finally returns home bruised, hurt, and broken they both realise they cant live without each other for long. Back from the kidnapping Dan suffers from depression and is struggling to live with the constant horrifying memories that haunt his life. Phil tries his hardest to help but will it be enough to save them both? trigger warning: contains self-harm and depressing thoughts. DO NOT READ if you are likely to get hurt by these things. I do not promote self harm or anything like this and I really hope that if you do these things talk to people about it. please. Anyways hope you enjoy my first phanfiction. I apologise if its bad but just a heads up if you hate it :) x

Finding the Phandom: A Dan and Phil AU by AmberIssues0

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Smile, Dan by kittylover573ds

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Life Is Precious, Just Like Him - Phil Lester X Depressed! Reader by noathenerd

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