A conglomerate of writings I had saved up during times when I was with people time and time again who taught me everything love wasn't. These are for better of worse the records of those days and how I saw them, written throughout the years. It speaks on many issues I've faced; many conversations, situations that were never in our favor, toxic loving, and the role substances have played in our stories. Reading this is my side of my story, I never meant for these to been seen so they are truly my reality of my situations. Thanks to my friend, I've been convinced to share them. None of these are recent and it's almost like a slow release for me, and I hope maybe it will resonate with you. Enjoy.