Throw the dice

Relationships are hard to form, hard to maintain and hard to break away from.

I learned that the easy way. My relationship started the other way around. It started with a break and that was my innocence and all I thought I knew up until the moment I met him.

He was the one your mother told you about to stay away from. He was the one you read about in romance books you kept secretly from your parents. He was the one that gave birth to the first dirty thoughts in your head. You didn't know if you had to be ashamed of them or conquer them and express them. He was the one who boosted your confidence and the only one who had the power to break it such as easily.

Many would say that the description of him could without a problem belong to the one half of a toxic relationship. The other one should be you. Right?

What happens when you start as the victim and as the story goes you become one with the villain?

What happens if you were the villain all along and you just needed the right one to reach it and force it out of you?

What if we are all deep inside the villains in our stories and we are searching our entire lives for the persons who are just that?

What happens if we are the cowards who expect to be shoved forward and take this leap to hell?

Is it really hell if you are free? Are you really free?