The Life I Want
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Last published Thu, Oct 27, 2022
"To live is the rarest thing in the world. Most people exist, that is all."
― Oscar Wilde
I spent almost half of my life being trained in this path.
I reached everything that they want me to.
I surpassed all the people who taught me through this journey.
I have been beaten to death and survived.
I am just existing in this world fighting for survival.
I want to feel how a normal life works but who am I kidding?
I was born in this life.
The question is do I really wanna continue living this life?
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Kritanta Connel, the captain of the world's best organization. She is living a life full of danger yet each moment is a thrill.
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