The days go by
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This is all of the negative feeling and thoughts I have on a daily basis during a bipolar episode. I've been diagnosed with Bipolar II since the beginning of 2020. I'm 15 and have trouble taking my medicine on a daily basis. So sometimes I can accidentally miss a week of medication or more. Also warning there are topics in this that may trigger others. Such as self harm, suicide, feeling uncared for, and feel like a burden.
Thank you for your time, hope this can help others understand me a little better and understand others with mental health issues or disorders better.
For those who struggle the same as I, hang in there, things will eventually get better.
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