Attached or Unattached (Hisoka x reader x Chrollo)

These days ordinary people seemed to like you, not seeing the brutal murderer you were, well you were an assassin it was your job and you didn't carry any remorse on what kind of person you had evolved by the time.

The likes of you could see a bit deeper under the surface, that much you let them see. That way, gaining the attention of two of your kind along the way, interested in you equally with your abilities and strength. But after some series of events you had no desire to let anybody too close to you anymore, not wanting never again to get attached to somebody and feel so empty once they were gone. Well because of a certain battle-crazed clown from the 287th hunter exam your way home doesn't start so quickly and you break your mental rule on staying too long with anybody's company. But once getting rid of the jester for a while you run into the particular troupe's leader who is so very intrigued with you, adding the involvement with the same troupe that had massacred the blondie's clan you befriended in the hunter exam through your ex-assassin acquaintance.

You were getting too involved, so how were you gonna prevent getting attached at this point with the feelings growing, no escape in sight anymore?