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cheater dyingyoung healingme heartbreak help him love poetry sh tw whyme younglove youngromance

poetry ive been waiting to write but didn't know where to start 

this is about me trying to heal from being cheated on by the first guy i trusted and let into my life 

and about my life with my family friends and who i've met while in this dark place in my life 


(TW) SH, suicidal things, and more please don't read if it could trigger you i will put a TW in the titles of one's that have it !

i made this hoping people could relate and understand where i'm coming from 

if anyone needs help please reach out to someone if you need to talk leave your socials in the comments and i'll add you i'm here for anyone who needs it 

if you have any questions or advice please tell me!

thank you for reading !!All Rights Reserved

cheater dyingyoung healingme heartbreak help him love poetry sh tw whyme younglove youngromance

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