Shadows and Serenades (Phan)
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Last published Sat, Apr 11, 2015
""I still sometimes think that I am nothing but an insane ill british guy with an emo fringe and hair darker than the shadows in my mind. Most of the time, I just try to forget my disease, I try to muffle the voices and ignore the shadows. But I am always living in this constant fear. This constant state of distress, this constant numbness and hysteria. And deep in the back of my mind, there is a voice. A voice that has been playling in the back of my mind ever since I was first diagnosed, and it repeats, always, like a constant broken record."Phil, You have Schizophrenia.""
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