Pt 1

The water that surrounds me is no longer clear

You say you love me but you are no longer here

an intense feeling of what most would consider pain

I feel as if this is the only way to stay sane

My life is spiraling, & I only continue watch it unfold

Gone but never forgotten will be soon be written in bold

if your blood runs red at least you know you're still alive

If this is hell I have not one doubt I'll survive

I'll never understand the feeling that lies within

How could loving the person you are ever be a sin

With eyes wide open we all pretend that we don't see

If I loved myself enough, I would just let it be

The bathroom walls drip, & lord knows they're beautifully painted

My hope for happiness in life is far beyond tainted

Ill always continue to pray

Even when I have no other words left to say

the room just keeps spinning around

no more blood, no more sound

I understand why pain is only a 4 lettered word

to continue living this life is beyond absurd

I promise this will be the last of my never ending hurt

Lying 6 feet under, covered with dirt