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Broken || Dan and Phil

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broken; 

1. having been fractured or damaged and no longer in one piece or in working order
2. (of a person) having given up all hope; despairing 

Broken. That's the only word Phil Lester can describe himself. He's fractured, damaged, and has given up all hope on himself. It's not his fault he is so hurt, so alone, and so far gone. All he wants is to make friends, feel loved, live a normal life, and too be happy. Unfortunately no matter where he goes or who he encounters, there is always someone there breaking him down and pushing him further down a dark hole he can't seem to escape from. He is at his breaking point and doesn't know how much longer he can hold on for. Will anyone ever notice the pain he suffers and finally decide to help him or will he always be on his own? When someone does notice, will it be too late to save him from the demons that have already imprinted a huge heart aching mark on his fragile and broken mind? 


✖️Warning✖️
This story includes self harming, thoughts of suicide, suicide sttempt, mature language, boyxboy, bullying, abuse, and other things that might not be suitable for a younger audience!All Rights Reserved

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(tw: s*lf-h*rm, mentions of s*lf-h*rm, d*pr*ss*d scenes. May be triggering for some. Read at your own limit, please!) Phil Lester, a boy who's falling into depression slowly. And soon, his depression may end up falling to deep. He gets hateful and rude comments on his videos that he posts to YouTube. He even gets hate on Twitter, Facebook, and Tumblr. What did he ever do to them? What did he do to deserve any of this?? His flatmate Dan doesn't know about Phil's depression, however. All he knows (thinks, rather) is that his best friend is staying strong through all of the hateful things he gets from people. But in reality, that's not what Phil is doing at all. He's not staying strong through the hate. He's just faking the smile for Dan so he wouldn't get so worried about him. Sure, Dan might be able to crack some real smiles out of him once in a while, but not every time. He also wears long sleeves and thick bracelets to hide the scars of his pain. He acts like his normal quirky, adorable, funny, weird self when making YouTube videos, when around his friends and family, when having a meet-up with fans (or just being around them in general), when out in public, etc. Phil hadn't told anyone at all about his depression. And he probably wouldn't anytime soon, either. His fans didn't know, his friends didn't know, his family didn't know, Dan didn't know... nobody knew. But one day, would people push him over his limit? Would Dan be able to save him in time? © 2016 by bluetroyee. ALL RIGHTS RESERVED.

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So close to breaking. She's so close. . She can't escape her thoughts. She only has her older brother left, the only thing that gives her hope. How much longer can she take it? Then it happens. That night. Everything is messed up. Everything. Will she give it all up? Or will someone save her just in time? What happenes when she ends up adopted by the one and only Dan and Phil? **TRIGGER WARNING** Contains eating disorders, self harm, suicide attempts, suicidal thoughts, depression, substance abuse, strong language, boyXboy, and much fluff. Please do not read if you may be triggered by these things. Also, if you need someone to talk to just private message me anytime :)

✓ | soulmates are stupid ☆ phan by enemyfires

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Too Close (Phan) by WellThisIsAwkward49

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voices | phan au by gothboiiz

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Moving ~ PHAN by krysiice

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Break Me (Phan) by MySecretsX

COMPLETE *** In this world, you're marked with black. That's if you have a soulmate, at least. Everyone is destined to cross paths with the one who is meant for them, at least once in their lives. When you and your soulmate meet, you will touch, if only briefly, and the exact area of skin you touch with the other turns from black to white, with streaks of blue, purple, yellow, all marbled in with each other. Daniel Howell is well known in town. People cross the street if they're approaching him and newcomers to the neighborhood are warned about his presence. Exactly like the Lester's were. But Phil Lester has other ideas, he saw the pain within the boy, how bad can he really be? (A story about abuse, self-destruction, but ultimately, love. Please read safe.)

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