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The Beast I Am

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Reads 933
Votes 81
Parts 44
Time 14h 22m

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Missing agency and direction in her life, River takes matters into her own hands to realize she never had much control to begin with. Thrust suddenly into a world she never wanted, River grapples with her newfound existence as she navigates the treacherous social hierarchy of the immortal elite. Haunted by her transformation and bound to Rhazien as her sire, she struggles to find her place amidst the intrigue and power struggles of the court. 

As she delves deeper into the secrets of her own past, she becomes entangled in a deadly game of betrayal and deception, where the stakes are not just her own survival but her soul. River must confront her own demons and navigate a world where trust is a rare commodity and betrayal lurks around every corner. Will she unravel the mysteries of her own transformation and emerge victorious, or will she become just another pawn in the endless games of immortals? 

A passion project. 

Trigger Warnings for Entire Piece: As a vampire fic there is mutilation, self harm, blood, and physiological torture of all kind. Mentions of SA are extremely limited and do not occur with the Main character. The prologue deals heavily with thoughts of suicide and can be skipped for any sensitive readers who struggle with suicidal ideation. Know you are loved and I want you here, this is just our girl's journey like so many of us have dealt with.All Rights Reserved

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