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The Beast I Am

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Reads 822
Votes 79
Parts 44
Time 14h 22m

Mature

Missing agency and direction in her life, River takes matters into her own hands to realize she never had much control to begin with. Thrust suddenly into a world she never wanted, River grapples with her newfound existence as she navigates the treacherous social hierarchy of the immortal elite. Haunted by her transformation and bound to Rhazien as her sire, she struggles to find her place amidst the intrigue and power struggles of the court. 

As she delves deeper into the secrets of her own past, she becomes entangled in a deadly game of betrayal and deception, where the stakes are not just her own survival but her soul. River must confront her own demons and navigate a world where trust is a rare commodity and betrayal lurks around every corner. Will she unravel the mysteries of her own transformation and emerge victorious, or will she become just another pawn in the endless games of immortals? 

A passion project. 

Trigger Warnings for Entire Piece: As a vampire fic there is mutilation, self harm, blood, and physiological torture of all kind. Mentions of SA are extremely limited and do not occur with the Main character. The prologue deals heavily with thoughts of suicide and can be skipped for any sensitive readers who struggle with suicidal ideation. Know you are loved and I want you here, this is just our girl's journey like so many of us have dealt with.All Rights Reserved

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Hidden by DarlingSophisticated

[DISCONTINUED] **MATURE LANGUAGE AND CONTENT** **POSSIBLE TRIGGERS** WATTYS2018 I walk down the staircase, entranced with his sharp, angular features. I notice how his lip curls up at the edge when he sees me. A soft breeze blows his scent across the room, and I can't think. Roses and salty ocean waves fill my nostrils. Add sunlight to the mix- which shouldn't have a smell but Luna, he smells like it- and I'm pretty sure if I could open my mouth, I'd be drooling. 'Mate.' My wolf whispers, giddy. I scramble back up the stairs. ____________________ Opening up when something terrible happens is hard. Near impossible. Jessamine Lightly was as normal as a Lycanthrope could be, but also a self-conscious teenager who felt a little out of place. She never thought that a boy would be interested in her, much less want to date her. Jessa learns too late that not every boy has pure intentions, and the boy she thought loved her, just wanted what was beneath her clothing. Hiding her physical and emotional pain from her family, Jessa copes with scarring memories and revelations. Intent on escaping her personal devil, Jessa plans to leave her pack. But having her mate- that she doesn't want- show up on her doorstep could change everything. Love, pain, twisted agendas and more...Jessamine goes through it all. Can she keep it all together before before someone figures out the true secret hidden in her scars? #724 Rejection 7/29/18 #339 Rejection 2/15/19 #6 empty 8/20/18

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*A Wattpad Featured Story* In order to solve the mystery surrounding her father's death, eighteen-year-old Naomi Noble is forced to move back to her hometown of Harbor Village. But her arrival creates more questions than answers, not to mention more problems. Encouraged by her deceptively charming grandfather, Naomi is roped into becoming a Leader of the Garou-the oldest Werewolf Pack in existence. Except her newfound status comes with a price, including the attention of a dangerous Vampire with the power to take her life...and her heart. Can she survive long enough to uncover the truth about her father and save her Pack from a Supernatural war? Or will her enemies get the best of her? Hate and love will be her biggest weapons... if they don't consume her first. *An updated version of the 2014 Watty Award Winner *Edited by the fabulous @ValeriBeatrix Seriously, she's amazing! Check out her stories!!! *Cover designed by the wildly talented @aramey In search of a good cover or a good book? Look no further!

Color Me Crimson | 𝘙𝘰𝘨𝘶𝘦 𝘝𝘢𝘮𝘱𝘪𝘳𝘦 by siberiathewriter

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ASORA: From The Blood Of The Shadows by rinaXhazurina

FORMER TITLE: Élan: A Youngblood World "Beware that you become not the very monster you ought to slay." Five friends embark on a quest to prevent an approaching cryptid-human war. Meanwhile, the human-clothed creature among them resists the hunger to ravage his companions. In a world where magic holds the essence to life, there is still no telling where fate determines your place will be. When the Cardinal Empire of Nyrhaea and its time-forsaken creatures declare war on the human world, an immortal dark entity in the guise of a human, a grieving swordsman, an electric-manipulating technocrat, an unhinged fire-breathing boy, and a magic-less girl whose very existence defies the Laws of Mahika, venture to stop the prophecied, apocalyptic world war. All the while dealing with the complications of entering adulthood. With the grotesque inside him growing hungrier by the day, threatening him of the looming hour to fulfill destiny's bidding to be the key to the end of the world--and death is an impossible remedy to attain--the entity resorts to a mysterious girl who could only be his last hope to achieve freedom from the shackles of fate. An antidote given not without an undefined price. But how long can he endure to bury the roots of the calling past? And what are they willing to risk to liberate a cruel world beyond saving that hangs in the state of trust and sanity? *~* Contains a few depictions of blood, violence, and eldritch elements. Any material from this book is prohibited from being used or republished in any form or other platform without the writer's permission. If you see this story published on sites other than Wattpad, Webnovel, and Inkitt without the writers' awareness and rightful permission, please report any case as such. Thank you! #12 in yafantasy #22 in high fantasy #12 in epic fantasy #25 in sword and sorcery

Touch: Saving Ai | ✓ by JaxCreation

[Vᴏʟᴜᴍᴇ 1 - Cᴏᴍᴘʟᴇᴛᴇ] Evelyn White was born with a gift - or rather, a curse: the first time she touches someone, she sees when and how that person dies. Meeting new people is sickening. Walking through a crowd is hell. Not to mention that when she opens her big mouth to tell people what's going to happen to them, most treat her like she's crazy - even after she saves their lives. But meddling with the future has consequences, and Death is not all there is to fear. As Evelyn races to find a way to save the new transfer student from being murdered, a voice starts whispering in her ear. Someone or something lurks in the shadows. Watching. Waiting. Trying to get close using mind games and tricks. It knows about her powers. It knows she can change Fate - and it's not alone. ------------------------------------------- This book is written in Australian English and uses British style grammar. Cover art and chapter illustrations by JaxCreation (WP) / jax-chan (dA) / @jaxchan.owo (instagram) / jax-chan.carrd.co. Do not repost or use without permission. 𝗖𝗼𝗺𝗽𝗹𝗲𝘁𝗲𝗱 𝘄𝗼𝗿𝗱 𝗰𝗼𝘂𝗻𝘁: ~32.5k words Featured on: • @WattpadUrbanFantasy: 'Dark as Death' - Nov 13, 2022 • @TeenFiction: 'Chills' - Aug 25, 2022 • @Mystery: 'The Sixth Sense' - Jul 27, 2022 • @Fright: 'Paranormal' - May 16, 2022 • @WackyWriters: 'Judge's Favourites' - May, 2022 • @Paranormal: 'After School' - Aug 28, 2021 • @Ghost: 'Die Young, Stay Pretty' - Apr 14, 2021 • @StoriesUndiscovered: 'In The Shadows' - Aug-Sep, 2020 • @PsychologicalNovel: 'Terrible Speculation' - Jun 16, 2020 • @anime: 'Light Novel' - Jun 6, 2020 • @YAMystery: 'Thriller' - Apr 26, 2020

The Lycan's Origin Series: The 1st Lycan Alpha by SecretBookworm14

KNOWN PREVIOUSLY AS HE RAPED ME...BECAUSE OF MATE PREVIEW: It's all but silent when it's over. I'm left alone in the woods. I don't have the strength to get up. So I curl into a ball, hugging my knees to my chest, sobbing, and yowling as I've never done before. Red hot blood seeps from between my thighs unto the leaves beneath me, taking my virtue along with it. A fowl reminder of the atrocious act just done to my once untouched body. In the very far distance, I hear a wolf howl into the night, the sound is haunting, sounding in as much agony as I am in. *.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.* Rape, Blood, Secrets, a Cult, Rituals, Sacrifice, Betrayal, Death, and a Tragic Love Triangle is the recipe for a new species yet to be discovered. Will one girl be able to handle all thrown her way? Or will she let the darkness consume her into the monster she is foretold to become? *.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.* WARNING: This book is Rated R for a reason, there are explicit sexual scenes, mature themes, and provocative language. There are also some difficult subjects I tackle in my book, so if you are not comfortable with these sorts of topics, I suggest you go no further than here. For all my past readers, welcome back!! To the new and improved version! Boy, do I have a rollercoaster of a journey for you to tag along on. Some names have been changed and the plot thickened, so get ready.

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Forget me lots (Completed) by NodaOrtiz

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