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What The Hell Am I?

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I am Cameron a girl with a death sentence. My end is about to come. Then I decided that I will do one last daring act before the curtains close on me. I decided to go cliff jumping. On the way I witnessed an accident. The man in the car asked me to take a metal briefcase. He begged me to destroy it. He made me swear that I would destroy it. I took it home before mom came back. I left it in the fridge thinking that I will destroy it in the morning. The next morning mom comes to my room with the vials. To my surprise she used them thinking it was part my meds. It miraculous cured me. I never imagined that my nightmare had just began. I have this crazy thirst that shows up out of nowhere or the urge to beat someone. I had better learn how to control these urges and stay hidden or I will lose all those I love.All Rights Reserved

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Cold Water by adaline_meadows

[BWWM] I was only twelve years old when the world turned cold. The day my mom died in that car accident, I felt like someone had dumped a bucket of ice water over my heart. My dad, who had always been my hero, suddenly became a stranger, filled with rage and blame. He couldn't see that I was hurting, too; he only saw me as a reminder of his loss. The accusations cut deep. He said it was my fault for being there, for not doing something to save her. For being the reason she was in the car in the first place. In the years that followed, things only got worse. The abuse started gradually-a harsh word here, a shove there-but it escalated, leaving scars that I carried long after the physical pain faded. I was drowning in my own despair, struggling to keep my head above water while my father's anger raged like a storm around me. I only had a break from his anger when I started living with Aunt Dina-my mom's older sister. Well, that was because she found me nearly dead on my bed after I took a dozen pills. I was tired of living. I had hit rock bottom. The harsh whispers that followed me around and the stares at school. I pretended not to notice, like it didn't bother me. But it did. I was alone. Then came Athalia, a ray of sunshine cutting through my darkness. With her, I felt something I hadn't felt in years-happiness. She became my light through the darkness and my lifeline. ••••••••••• ● Warnings ⚠️ ~ Mention of suicide ~ Anxiety attacks ~ Rape attempt ~ Mention of self-harm ~ Depression

My Little Idiot by jessedictor

"I bet you wouldn't". These words were going to make her rethink her entire life. These words were going to place her where she belongs. I can't turn down a good dare. She provoked me. Deep down she knows this is her fault. At any moment her feeble dad could come stumbling in and see her engaged in my "bet". She found me waiting for her in her bed. She was wearing that ripped grey knitted top and black skirt she always wears. She looks like someone trying to steal a stripper's style but doesn't have the time or experience. I had leaned back with my legs open. I smiled at her. "What the hell are you doing here" she stuttered out. The smirk I had seemed appropriate. She seemed nervous. "I'm here to take you as mine. That time I saved you... I dunno. You're just want I want." I said to her, as she made herself small. "I'm just an idiot..." she trailed off. I stood up. I towered over her; she was so tiny besides me. "I'm here to take you away from your parents. I'm here to make you mine." Four months later, she's here at my place. I think she hates me. She's mostly a junkie though, so her hatred only gets to go so far before she comes back. She tried to find some other guy to support her, but that guy found out quick that's how you end up with a bloody face. I'm face is already so wrecked that I don't get to worry about keeping it pretty. I think all the Cartlidge in the bridge of my nose is gone from too many punches.

Scars by SarahORawe4

"If I risk it all, could you break my fall? How do I live? How do I breathe? When your not here i'm sufficated. I wanna feel love, run through my blood. Tell me is this where I give it all up? For you, I have to risk it all, Cuz the Writing's on the Walls." This is a story about a boy and a girl. She loves him, and he want's her dead. But he vowed to keep her safe..But how can he keep such a dangerous vow? *EXCERPT FROM BOOK BELOW* "Our story is like the movies. The movies with the happy endings?" I yelled as he got out of the car. "No! Our ending is nothing like those movies Vana. Our story is the both of us risking it all and then ending up right next to Kyle." He said and sighed. And he was right. Our ending is that one fucked up movie that no on wants to go see. "SO YOU AREN'T WILLING TO RISK IT ALL!?! I yelled louder as the rain came pouring down. He turned on his heal and stomped twords me pulling me close to him leaveing no space between us. His lips came crashing down on mine making the butterflies in my stomach errupt with pleaseure. He pulled away and sighed as did I. He grabbed my hand and ran his thumb over the knuckle of my thumb over my tattoo thanks to his stupid game of dare or dare. "Look at the perspective of things Vana. You might see a smily face but I don't. I see a sad face. You don't want my happy ending. Trust me." He said and sighed again. "I love you so much Vana." He said and kissed the top of my head and then walked back over to his house. But he didn't really love me. If he did he would be willing to risk it all just like I am. But I am left just like Kyle had suspected. Alone and heart broken in the rain. Because I was always the one willing to risk it all. For him.

My vampire mate (currently re-writing) by fuck_off04

A 15 year old girl faces the extremes starting from a young age... Abuse, mentally..physically..emotionally.. hatred, depression, suicidal thoughts, attempts, and more. All things she eventually had to learn how to handle on her own. But a vampire now... how will she face face this new ' extreme'? I grew up with a abusive family, all of them reminding me every day how worthless I was, how i was the mistake and the one ruining the family name, and didn't Belong. Until one unexpected night I was taken by a guy who is a vampire and claims me as his mate... Y/n is a teenage girl who is abused and hurt by not only her family, but other people she meets at school, she was counted as a outcast, freak, etc.. one night she goes out and is almost raped but is saved and kidnapped by a guy who ends up claiming to be a vampire who claims she is his mate, and that she belongs to him. Will she find love with him? Or will she fight their connection? ^ THIS BOOK IS WRITTEN FROM YOUR POV (point of view) ^ *swearing* * inappropriate * *slow updates* *first book* *no hate please if you don't like it stop reading* * probably extremely cringy* ( You have been warned) ( not very good at descriptions you'll have to read to find out) > This is a copy right story< READ AT YOUR OWN RISK BUT PLEASE LOOK AT THE TAGS, THIS BOOK CONTAINS MASSIVE DEPRESSION, DEPRESSION THOUGHTS, SUICIDAL ATTEMPTS, AND MANY OTHER THINGS THAT CAN TRIGGER MULTIPLE THINGS IN THAT CATEGORY, INCLUDING EATING DISORDERS. PLEASE IF THIS IS A TRIGGER FOR YOU, PLEASE DO NOT READ THIS BOOK. Thank you. #4 abuse 2021 #16 attempted rape 2021 #3 in abuse 2022

Hunted by autumnstorm92

Lacey and her friends just graduated from high school. To celebrate, they all go to a cabin owned by Lacey's family in the middle of nowhere and spend a few weeks there before they all go off their separate ways to college. It's supposed to be a fun, relaxing vacation, filled with parties and everything else they can imagine, but someone else outside their group has other plans. From missing local animals to strange noises and break ins, things continue to get worse until tragedy strikes. Can they make it out alive? Or will they all fall victim the one that hunts them in the dead of night? _____________________________________________ Excerpt: "Miss.." I heard from behind me. I turned around to see what he wanted. From the corner of my eye I saw his fist coming towards my face. I had no time to duck and was hit full force. Pain exploded behind my eyes and my vision went blurry. I started falling, but he caught me right before I hit the ground and picked me up. "I didn't want to hurt you." I heard him whisper right before I passed out.

Guava City by LenaOliF

I was about 10 years old when I had to kill my first to keep myself safe. I may remember other exciting and decisive events in my young age life as well, but never expected to one day be the main suspect of being a cruel serial-killer in a foreign country, I do not have memories of killing all that people, I may have a selective memory, it explain all the happiness when I heard that all of them were dead and the blood stain in my shoes. In most of the other people 's I can be a miserable unlucky woman, but when I sleep, I am God.

You Don't Know Me by Oneirata_xia

I could still feel the numbness in my limbs and the piercing pain on my shoulder as I tried to adjust my eyes to the light. There was a constant banging sound in my ear and it was slowly fading away. My vision was blurry and as i adjust my focus, i saw all four of my so called brothers in front of me. They all looked.....worried. I was still not used to their insane acting skills because for a sec i believed it. Maybe I was deceiving myself. What if they actually cared? Before i completely lost it i woke up and tried to pull the plugs and syringe in me....and to say I regretted it was an understatement. Raffaele immediately held me and Damian was screaming for the doctor. I snapped and pushed him away. I didn't know why I was in an hospital. The last thing I remember was holding a gun against my head. "Where is he" The first person I looked for as soon as I woke up was him but he was no where to be seen. I was scared for him, my brothers were capable of doing anything. "He is dead" I couldn't make out who said it because as soon as I heard it my world went black. **************************** Amelia was deceived her whole life. The man she thought was her father was actually her kidnapper. She was locked away from the world her entire life and the constant abuse was all that she could remember . Years later, her brothers comes back to get her after finding out their long lost sister is alive...... But these brothers can't keep their little princess to themselves for long. Lucas Hermandez. To him Amelia is his light, the only one who can tame this demon. The moment when she went missing he turned the world upside down trying to find her. He'd burn the world if it meant he could find her. What will happen when he finds out she's back? Amelia's determined about one thing - never to trust anyone again, and her brothers are reluctant to win back her trust. She is no longer the sweet girl they once knew. ********************

Her Last Wish by AnonymouslyUnknown27

Tiana Collin's life is horrible and she knows this. With an abusive father and a druggie for a mother and with absolutely no friends at school, she didn't think her life meant much. So she decided to end it. But before she ended her life, she wants to feel loved. To feel cared for. To feel. So she decides to date one of the most popular boys in school, Tyson Bent, who she knows has a bet with his best friend. A bet to get her to sleep with him. She knows he doesn't really care about her. But sometimes it's nice to pretend. After all, she's only supposed to be with him for a week. After that... well after that she's not even going to be alive. Tyson had it all, the popularity, the looks, the money, everything. And he never missed a chance to flaunt his supposed perfection. Another thing about him is that he never backs down from a dare. So when his best friend dares him to sleep with a girl named Tiana, how can he refuse? But when he reads her diary, he has another mission. A mission completely different from the dare. A mission far more important than a dare. An added bonus being the chance to finally find out who he is and not who everyone else wishes for him to be. A chance to grow into the person he could be. TW// suicide, suicidal ideation, self harm, abuse, mention of drug addiction

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Cold Water

[BWWM] I was only twelve years old when the world turned cold. The day my mom died in that car accident, I felt like someone had dumped a bucket of ice water over my heart. My dad, who had always been my hero, suddenly became a stranger, filled with rage and blame. He couldn't see that I was hurting, too; he only saw me as a reminder of his loss. The accusations cut deep. He said it was my fault for being there, for not doing something to save her. For being the reason she was in the car in the first place. In the years that followed, things only got worse. The abuse started gradually-a harsh word here, a shove there-but it escalated, leaving scars that I carried long after the physical pain faded. I was drowning in my own despair, struggling to keep my head above water while my father's anger raged like a storm around me. I only had a break from his anger when I started living with Aunt Dina-my mom's older sister. Well, that was because she found me nearly dead on my bed after I took a dozen pills. I was tired of living. I had hit rock bottom. The harsh whispers that followed me around and the stares at school. I pretended not to notice, like it didn't bother me. But it did. I was alone. Then came Athalia, a ray of sunshine cutting through my darkness. With her, I felt something I hadn't felt in years-happiness. She became my light through the darkness and my lifeline. ••••••••••• ● Warnings ⚠️ ~ Mention of suicide ~ Anxiety attacks ~ Rape attempt ~ Mention of self-harm ~ Depression