PAINT me INSANE.

I Blink once, Twice but my vision stays blurry... Oh God!! I don't want to die...

My head throbs as i tiredly blink again in an attempt to clearly my vision. Blood gushes from the back of my head, no doubt from the harsh impact i had with the ground.

My body aches in pain, the hole in my belly crying for attention as the bullet in my belly feels like it's going deeper... I don't want to die... Not yet.

"Mel" The mocking voice of the man who did this to me whispers softly and my heart aches... I was so stupid.

"Mel" Hearing the voice again, whispering my name cruelty in a mocking manner, i turn my head, expecting and deliberately ignoring the pain i know that i will feel... Even after everything i still ache to see him... I AM so stupid.

I look around and although I expected it, it hurt more when i see I'm alone... The pain and anger from the realization leaves the physical pain in my body almost unfelt...

I feel the tears drop down the sides of my face but not a single sound comes out and it's no surprise, i shouted alot before this... My whole life... I was nothing... Noone.

My beaten and bruised body becomes numb as i feel no more pain, I'm free, no more pain... Pure Bliss as i feel myself fading away.

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Life can be very confusing...
You'll feel fear, pain, anger...
You'll feel betrayal but to overcome all that is strength...

But the question is what does it mean to surrender, What does 'All be damned' mean when it comes to love??

FIND OUT IN 'PAINT me INSANE'...
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WARNINGS...
IT IS A SAD STORY...
IT WILL HAVE A HAPPY ENDING BUT MY DEFINITION OF A HAPPY ENDING MIGHT NOT SIT WELL WITH YOU...

OK, IM OUT...