To the Marauders and to Regulus Black, James Potter is the sun. He is a joy to be around and one of the most supportive friends one can have. James looks out for all of his friends. James looks out for Remus by making his life as easy and painless as possible. James looks out for Peter by giving him advice and encouraging letters. James looks out for Sirius by helping him through panic attacks and nightmares. James looks out for everyone, but no one is looking out for him. James is stuck in a perfectionist cycle striving for perfection in everything. He needs to have good grades, and he needs to be the best chaser at Hogwarts. His desires become obsessive, and his struggles go under the radar of his friends. James is under-eating, and over-exercising and his anxiety is nearly debilitating. It is the summer before the sixth year when everything changes when Sirius Black finally runs away from home. James finds Sirius at his doorstep with his trunk and holding on to his little brother's hand for dear life. Regulus notices that James isn't who he seems to be, but that doesn't make him any less perfect in his eyes. - Tigger Warnings - This fic includes topics about mental health and eating disorders, but no SH. - This fic is not canon compliant and is a happy ending fic, however, it will be sad off and on throughout the fic. - Extended summary inside the fic - Also follow @savingthesun on TikTok for teasers and updates:)