Apostate
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I'm an ex-muslim. This is my attempt to explain what I go through everyday: it's pretty hard to get my thoughts into words sometimes, but I need somewhere to vent. Somewhere I can release what I truly think, because I feel I'm living a lie. I can't tell anyone, so I thought I'd do it here, safe in the knowledge only strangers will read this.
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