Just want to love
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  • Reads 628
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  • Parts 1
  • Time 14m
Complete, First published Dec 26, 2022
Mature
Toge has C-PTSD and abandonment issues, he's madly in love with Yuuta, but is incapable or believing Yuuta or anyone could ever love him.
He's broken he's weird, he's socially awkward, as if anyone could ever love him, and even if so, they'd leave him. That's what always happens. No one would wait for him to get better. He's tired. He wishes he could be normal.

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This has MANY triggers and sensitive themes. Please, PLEASE only read it if you're comfortable with it. 
If you or anyone you know need help my DM's are open. 


AU where Toge and Yuuta didn't met until after highschool.

 AU where I make Toge suffer, I'm sorry

Aged up characters

Trigger warning for past child abuse, past trauma, mentions of past sex abuse, slight depiction of sexual abuse, past emotional abuse, abandonment issues, slight self ablelism, pinning, unrequited love, hurt no comfort, angst, pure suffering. 

I'm sorry I needed to write something like this, I promise eventually I'll write a happy ending, eventual comfort?.
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