The Lives

My life is not exactly normal. Well
my lives haven't been normal either.
I'm called "special" because I can remember my past lives, all of them. I don't
feel special, I feel hopeless. Throughout all my lives I have a reoccurring
problem, the same problem every time. It always causes me great despair and pain,
none of my lives have been happy, not even this one. I always always die, the same way every time.
Let me start at the beginning...