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All in my Mind

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Reads 2,979
Votes 261
Parts 37
Time 10h 24m

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Alexander Jones was 17 when things started going wrong. Then the trigger event happened. 

Now Alex is almost 20 and he's definitely still dealing with the fallout of what happens when psychosis ruins your life. And what's the point of getting better, when nothing will ever be the same again? What's the point of getting better if he can't even tell the difference between what's real and what's fake? What's the point of getting better when he was a perfect glass child and the official schizophrenia diagnosis came just a smidge too late? 

*TW for gun violence involving minors, suicide, self harm, trauma, psychosis, medical abuse, substance use*All Rights Reserved

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