Pain behind those grey eyes
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Last published Tue, Apr 14, 2026
"N-No... don't stop. Don't fucking stop." I replied and hugged him tightly, my voice thick with desperation and longing for him but I don't fucking care now. "I want this and I want you....Now."
"I-I....I can't do this to you but. It would be...just fucking from my side Alysia." He replied softly while his one hand went on my hair, brushing my locks away from my face and the other around my waist, caressing it softly over the fabric.
I know it would be just fucking from his side.
I know he will never like me like I do.
I know he will never want me like I do.
I know he will never care for me like I do.
I know everything, Smith.
But still, the forbidden craving to get touched by him, to get touched by my... husband, overpowered my ability to make the correct decision and I gave up.
I fucking gave up myself to him.
***
Under Confident and disappointed Alysia Marie Johnson.
Cold and Insecure Smith James Parker.
They are two lost pieces of the same puzzle looking for peace.
Read to find out what happens when they meet each other after 4 years.
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