「Suicidal」Chishiya x reader

Everybody tries to survive in a world about life and death, yet u seem to be the only one, who doesn't care.
Life has no point.
U wanted to taste the sweet release of death already, since young, but there was always a thought about someone, that
stopped u from killing urself.

,,𝑰𝒇 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒘𝒂𝒏𝒏𝒂 𝒅𝒊𝒆 𝒔𝒐 𝒃𝒂𝒅𝒍𝒚, 𝒘𝒉𝒚 𝒏𝒐𝒕 𝒋𝒖𝒔𝒕 𝒌𝒊𝒍𝒍 𝒚𝒐𝒖𝒓𝒔𝒆𝒍𝒇 ?"

,,𝑩𝒆𝒄𝒂𝒖𝒔𝒆 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒘𝒐𝒏'𝒕 𝒍𝒆𝒕 𝒎𝒆 ."

U knew him, Chishiya, since middle school (year 7-10).
It was always the same.
The other students would bully and chishiya would threat them to stop and they would always listen.
They even tried attacking u, when they were sure, that Chishiya wasn't around.
But he would somehow always know.

Sry for my English btw, it's not my first language 💀

(Reader is female and around the age of 21-25, race and skin color isn't mentioned)

TW: talking of suicide, depression, violence, cussing, failed suicide attempts