>N.Gogol< Maneuver

I just want to improve my writing and everything so yeah-

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Many people would look at my with pity for my willing to die..Some people would look disturbed by my story.But I never cared..
"Such a ungrateful daughter..Doesn't even care that she lives in such a nice house.."Some people would kill to life in a household like this!" "So low-spirited.. Disgusting!" They would say. But it never mattered to me. I was just an emotionless marionette. Always controlled and was constantly dragged to do things against my will.
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But one day, something inside of me just...Snapped.
I felt like. faking my happiness and just lose controle. so you know what? i just turned fake. Leaving the lifeless puppet inside of me. Well... not really. I faked it of course!. But for then. I would wait till i finally felt warmth inside of me. Awaiting the day i felt true emotion.

But would that ever happen..?
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'I already know you won't admit your true feelings..I suppose your so pathetic you don't even know!' -Y/n

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Will be using female pronounces