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The Diary Of A Lonely Girl By Esmeray Love

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As the title suggests, I'm lonely. 110% of people in this world are. But that's not the point. I'm a mix a lot of things, a lot of emotions, but I've always denied that one emotion. That scared me to death. But here I am doing something I promised I'll never do. Today I accept that I'm lonely. When I'm alone studying or doing exercises or having fun with my friends, I'm lonely. It is a burning sensation that comes up the throat and blocks the air out of me, all the time. 
This book is a remedy to all those who feel the same. 
This is about survival. That is if I survive.All Rights Reserved

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