Moving to Texas was the worst thing that happened to me. Until I met you, my life was better. In fact, my life was great! You gained my trust, and I gained yours.
As time went on, you got into YouTube and met new people. You recorded with them daily, and had loads of fun.
You eventually had go to all these conventions. There you would be able to see your friends, as well as meeting fans. You also had to see your girlfriend, Sara.
You promised me you would come back soon, that it wasn't goodbye. As soon as you got back, everything would be like good old times. Talking about our day, watching movies, teaching each other new stuff. Like nothing changed, you were never gone.
I waited
and waited,
and waited,
but you never came back.
"You were worried about me, Specs?" He smirked.
"No, Tyler. I hoped that someone cut up your corpse and fed it to paranas. Obviously I was, you idiot! I'm a doctor. Worrying about people is kind of programmed into my system. It's a curse if you ask me," I surprised myself a lot more than I thought was possible with my answer.
And what did he do? Laugh! He fucking laughed! Not full on rolling- on- the- floor laughter but a laugh nonetheless.
"This isn't funny, Tyler."
"It kind of is. Almost a month ago, I would've sworn that you hated me. Be careful, Specs," he squinted down at me, "or you might actually sound as if you like me."
I rolled my eyes. "Don't flatter yourself. I was concerned. Don't confuse that with affection. It's two very, very different things."
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When you think that all is not lost in the world.
That not all men are pricks and that not all sushi is bad.
When you think that there is a light, no matter how dim, at the end of the tunnel.
When you think that life isn't the ruthless bitch you've always thought it was...
It turns around and bites you in the ass.
When you think that the past will always and forever remain where it should be...
It comes at you from every direction. Like a violent tsunami destroying everything...and everyone in it's path.
Can you change what happened?
I wish.
Can you stop what's going to happen?
God! I really hope so.